And, They Sleep

The whole house is happily in dream land while I sit here at 3 am blogging. You ask, why? I'm worried about not getting up for work. I have to work childcare for my church in the morning and I don't want to be late. So, I guess you could say I'm getting an early start. Or that I'm just plain crazy. The funniest part of the whole thing is that one of my children is bound to get me up in plenty of time to get ready in the morning, yet again, they've been known to let me sleep in until 8 before. I have take a small dose of sleeping meds and set my alarm on my cell phone and here I sit trying to pass the time til I start to feel drowsy. I wouldn't be so worried about not being there on time and being ready to go but I missed two Bible study groups because I was dealing with my own sick little angels. No parent wants to spread that stuff around to the rest. So, I feel bad and a bit on the flaky side to boot. I love my job and I don't want to lose it. What would that say about me if I lost a job with a church...?
Things have been crazy around here. But, when are they not. I love my little angels and I feel closer to them than ever. I wish I'd had been more of a hands on mom right from the beginning but you usually do what you learned and I never learned to be hands on. My mom didn't dote over us kids at all. Matter of fact, children were to be seen and not heard. It's sad but it explains a lot of what is going on with this inside battle I have to be better than my mom was with us. Ryan never questions why I parent the way I do, he just gently shows me the errors of my ways by example and how I am better than the generations before me. I don't know what kind of parent I'd be without his fun loving and exciting parenting style. He's a good man in many unseen ways.
Things are looking up in the way of the Jeep getting fixed sooner than what we were afraid of. Which was never...It looks like this weekend we will have the money saved for the $400 part. Yeah, ouch...
You know I like being up in the middle of the night while eveyone is asleep. Yeah, sure I can't exactly turn on the light in the living room/Steff's bedroom and do any reading. Which I love to do but I can sit and type til my hearts content and I always have a cup of coffee to keep me company. It's kind of my personal time. I might not be at my best but at least I'm alone. Which in a house with three kids and a puppy is hard to come by.
Speaking of the puppy, he's paper trained. He has three paper pads throughout the house and he uses them when ever he needs to use the potty. It was really nothing to teach him, he kinda just pick it up all on his own. It's kinda funny, cuz when we let him out of his pen he runs around and tinkles on each pad as if to remark his territory.
I think the meds are stating to work cuz I'm feeling a little slow. But, I'll wait another minute longer and go on about how wonderulf my husband is to me. You see, the other day he went in to work late because I was hurting so bad I was in tears. He stayed home to help with the kids while I layed down and rested. What a wonderful man. I know it killed him to go in so late but because he loves me so much, he did it. I don't know what I'd do without him. He just so wonderful and he puts up with me, which now that I've been getting therapy for my spending habits he says he has no real complaints. Which makes me feel good. I'm working on being better for our marriage. I love my husband and he's worth each ounce of work I have to put in. I'm sure he feels the same way too.