Kieran's Partay....

"Home and Bye," Turning Eleven and Using Her Imagination

Well, things haven't changed all too much and that would be the reason for my lack of blogging and for that, I apologize...This is what is new.
Sadie still isn't saying much but everyone once in while she pops off with a word here and there. For instance the other day my dad was leaving and she said "bye," clear as day...my dad and i even looked at each other in disbelief. Today she said, "home." We were just pulling into the garage after our bi-weekly grocery shopping trip...and there she says, "Home." Again, clear as day. So, we are hoping she will start saying more and more words and thus start talking our heads off soon. Which will be nice change.
Kieran just had his turning point in life. He's officially a tween. He's not quite a teen and not a kid anymore. And, it shows. He's been into what he's wearing lately and super into friends and thinking he's old enough to go places without an adult. This bothers us but we've also given him a small amount of independence. In other words, he's been to the mall 2 times without having adult supervision. He also has a cell phone. We decided that it's important for us to be able to contact him and for him to learn about technology. We've come to an agreement that we want our children to be technologically capable. Thus, our 11 year old has a cell phone...not to mention it makes it nice to call him and ask him where he is at when he's out playing with friends.
Steffanie's new trick is playing with her toys and using her imagination. This is such a great and blessed change. She actually entertains herself from time to time. She really likes her dinosaurs and her tiny little dolls that came in her happy meals. She puts the dolls on the backs of various things and has them fly around. But, by far the cutest is listening to her converse these different objects. There's nothing quite as cute as listening to your own children having a conversation with themselves.
Ryan and I are doing well, we've been trying to spend as much time together and as a family as possible since we've really been tight with money lately and he's had to work even more overtime than usual.
All in all things are going well in our worlds and we hope to hear wonderful things about yours as well, take care and be blessed.
Tricia

Sadie's Doctor Appointment

It was an interesting appointment to say the least. Dr. Silas is worried about why Sadie isn't talking especially the fact that she used to say "mama" and "dada" and now she just squawks. He has referred her to an audiologist and to speech therapy. However, we've learned that our insurance will only cover rehabilitation not habilitation. So, they'll pay for you to re-learn to talk but not to learn to talk. This was of great disappointment. We have decided to keep her first appointment with the speech therapist as this appointment is intended to be an evaluation and not so much therapy. We are wondering if she is able to make tongue and lip sounds as those are the places we form our words.
We don't think she has any hearing problems for several reasons...she understands what we are saying to her and she can follow simple directions, she covers her ears when there are loud sounds and she responds to things like banging noises and such with a startle. One thing is for certain though...she may have some hearing issue as her brother began going deaf in his left ear a few years back. If you recall he did have surgery and now has a prosthetic second ear bone. His hearing is coming back but it will take many years to fully, if ever recover. It was explained to me in this manner; it's like having a prosthetic leg...you can walk but you never completely lose a limp or a catch in your step but you function just fine.
At the appointment we also learned she's still our little peanut but she has graduated into the twenty-fifth percentile for weight and height. She's getting bigger and growing just fine, she just won't talk. Not so sure that's a bad thing...she may never shut up once she does start talking and oh...boy what fun that will be.
The doctor believes she has the words in her head she just doesn't speak them. We'll see what happens at her audiology and speech evaluation and I'm quite certain I will be back with the findings.

Pics and Sadie

What is Sadie doing? She woke up at 3am and is fully of spunk...Not sure what this is all about but boy do I wish she'd go back to sleep. But, I don't see that happening anytime soon. She's even managed to wake her sister up but at least she went back to sleep. Now she thinks it's time to sit on my lap and grab at everything within reach. Wow, she's being so hyper...I wonder what has gotten into her?

Yesterday Marcus and Anne hosted a big family bar b que and here are some of the pictures from the event...

Baby Pageants and Moving Furniture

We did it...We successfully got the television down our stairs and it only took Ryan and a buddy from work to do it. They originally thought the television weighed 320 pounds but after a quick lift to see what they were up against they realized it wasn't gonna be that heavy after all. So, after moving the microwave, the stove and the dining room table out of the way they maneuvered it carefully down the stairs and around the landing. It fit...it was a miracle, but it fit. And, if we ever get a new one or sell it, the deal is that the delivery people take the old one and the new buyers have to come get it...Ryan never wants to move it through that tight stair hole ever again.
That was last Saturday and things got even better. You see, Cheryl (Ryan's wonderful mom) came and took Steffanie for the night and we managed to pawn Sadie off on my little sister Mady and Kieran wanted to stay the night at my dad's house. So, we had no kids. Did you hear that? We did not have any of our children. NONE!!! It was a magical night and not because of anything romantic but because we actually got things done. We moved furniture and started organizing our house the way we want it. It's been weird not having my mom here but now that we have the entire house to ourselves it's a lot easier to handle. We actually have a family room and a nice living room. Do you know what that means folks? We have room to have birthday parties at our house. We will not feel like we're smashed into this little house but instead we will have breathing room. I'm actually excited for Sadie's birthday party to see how things work out. . .
The family is doing well. Kieran finished up the baseball season with the best record in the league in spite of losing the championship and he's been doing a lot a water playing with the weather being so hot. He's still enjoying his summer with minimal boredom.
Steff has been quite a good girl lately but I only feel that way now that I've had a break from her. She was getting on my nerves something fierce there for a few days and thus my mother in-law came to the rescue with her overnighter. I think I could have lost my mind. Toddlers can be so draining. But, really she's been a good girl and listening a lot better than she used to.
Sadie is wonderful. She entered the Riverdale Glory Days Baby Pageant and despite how adorable we all think she is, she didn't win anything. She entered all the categories but to no avail. That's okay we thinks she's the cutest baby in the world. But, we know her personality too. Judges don't get to see the "real" baby in 45 minutes.
Ryan is doing well. He's looking at having to work more overtime than he's used to since we now have a car payment but he doesn't seem too overly upset about it. He successfully got his new baby (his computer) up and running and he loves it and has threatened to mame anyone that touches it. He's been Mr. Wonderful and I couldn't have a better man as my friend and husband.
I am doing great. . .My sternum is just about healed and I rarely have pain from it. My ribs are doing better and I haven't been bucked out of any other chairs recently either. I love having an office and a family room and before long I'm gonna have a nice set of legs from going up and down the stairs so much. No need for a StairMaster here.
Well, that's the latest happenings in our lives, hope you enjoyed catching up.
With Love,
Tricia

Most Recent Family Picture

My Wonderful Husband

Ryan did the sweetest thing last night when he came home from work...he cleaned the kitchen...putting the dishes from the dishwasher away and reloading it and wiping down the stove and cleaning the pan and pot that were on it as well. How sweet is that? I wake up at 3 am because I can't sleep and walk into the kitchen for a drink and see the dishes emptied out of the sink and the dishwasher unloaded and the reload begun...I was so excited I almost went in and woke him up to tell him how wonderful he is and to thank him but, I curved my excitement and decided to let him get his sleep.
I just wanted to share how wonderful this man is...

The Antics of Steff

Steffanie has some new things she's been up to. She's been quite the little stinker lately really. Her latest and most horrifying new trick is to cross the street to hang out with the neighbors or to follow the dog across the street. It completely scares the crap out of Ryan and I since we know she's not watching for cars. I read that kids don't really grasp that they even need to really pay attention to oncoming cars until they are 8 years old...so being 3, she's quite far off from that understanding. We've tried all the tricks to keep her from going into the street but to no avail. So, if you have any ideas please send us an email...

She has also gotten pretty brave and just goes downstairs anytime she pleases...which is of great fear for us since she always makes it into our office and she gets into everything. She keeps cutting up my calendar with the scissors and it's only a matter of time til she cuts herself...but I got smart and put them in drawer and she hasn't figured out where they are yet. Before I got smart and put the scissors out of sight she had cut her hair and my desk calendar all to pieces.

Oh...I Love My Daughter....

Steffanie Adventures

Our darling daughter did the funniest thing yesterday...see she has a new fetish with nail polish and she likes to paint her fingers, not just her nails but her whole finger. Well, she found a bottle of goldish brown polish on my vanity and decided she wanted to be pretty. So, she painted her nails or should I say, fingers and then she painted the dog...So, our dog now is a paint chihuahua. And, we can't figured out a safe way to get the paint off the dog. We've given him a bath with no success.

Our New Vehicle

Well, we did it...we bought a new car or should I say van...minivan that is. We made our purchase on the 14th through Enterprise car sales and we experienced a great car buying experience. They have been so great and so willing to completely satisfy us.
We bought a 2007 Dodge Grand Caravan. It's a beautiful greenish, bluish, grey color and it's loaded with all the bells and whistles. It seats 7 and has automatic everything. Even the back doors are automatic and open by themselves. It's nice and roomy and gets great gas mileage to boot.
We are loving it more and more each day. We never thought we'd buy a minivan but we rented one and fell in love with all the room they have and how far they've come from the Econoline van. Besides, a van was the best thing for our family...So, don't tell us that we don't love our family.

Just the Latest

Well, it looks like we'll be car shopping this weekend. We've got our eyes set on a '07 Dodge Grand Caravan for now but things might change. We like how roomy the van is and Dodge has the "stow n go." We never thought we'd be van people but we rented one for a couple of days and absolutely loved it so we've changed our views. It was so roomy and big inside.
The kids are doing well. Kieran is loving Summer vacation and he hasn't seemed to get too bored yet either. His baseball team won "Grand Champs" for not losing a single game all season and they're in the playoffs. Hopefully they win the playoffs, they really deserve to. Their coach is constantly teaching them new things, for instance the last time Kieran got up to bat he placed the shoulder of his shirt in his mouth so that he'd keep his swing straight. It worked...he got a hit after having a dry spell.
Steff is doing well. She hasn't done anything too new but she's picked up "shush." If she doesn't like what we're saying she will shush us or if she's getting in trouble, the same thing, "shush." She also picked up some choice phrase that we can't be sure where she got from but it's annoying and we can't figure out how to tell her that certain words are not acceptable. OH...the joys of having a parrot...
Sadie is doing good...she has learned how to get up and down on furniture and she's working up the nerve for stairs. She gets really close to them and about scares her parents half to death. But as of yet she hasn't quite figured them out. She can go up and down them if she's already on them and crawling them but she hasn't figured out how to turn around and go down them yet. Still no talking but definitely getting more animated.
Ryan is doing well himself. He got a nice Spring bonus at work and he's building a new computer soon. So, he's a happy boy. I'm also excited because I get his "old" computer...the one he built about two years ago and then Kieran gets my "old" computer. New computers all around...
I'm doing okay...I have a bit of pain still but mostly in the mornings and evenings but things are getting better a lot faster than I thought they would. Or, maybe it's just been that long and I should be getting better..?
As you see things are going pretty well in the Krazy Kelstrom home...take care of yourselves because someone out there thinks the world of you...
Tricia

Gone Golfing

Ryan and Kieran took a day and spent time together golfing. They both had a blast and Ryan came home in a great mood and a proud papa. Ryan said Kieran was on top of his game and did a great job hitting the ball. He said he needs to work on chipping and putting but his long game is excellent. Kieran even out drove Ryan on a par 3. He was so excited that he said to Ryan's friend that was with them, "I hit it farther than my dad." He said it with such excitement Ryan said.
I'm sure glad they got out together and spent some father, son time together. They need that...and it's very good for their relationship too.

The rest of the family is doing pretty good. Steff has seemed to grow up to be a little helper lately. She loves doing things for us and she's so smart that she does them well.
Sadie has been a sweet heart but that's nothing unusual for her. She has been doing new and silly things and she's constantly got Ryan and I laughing. She's such a great addition to our family.
I am doing better and better each day. I feel a little rough in the evening after a long day of doing things but for the most part I feel pretty good. I can't wait to be able to go golfing though...
We still don't have a car but that's because we are waiting for some other money to come through so we can put a really nice down payment on a car and not have too much to finance.

Latest and Greatest

It's been an interesting couple of weeks. . .The kids are doing well. Kieran is enjoying his Summer vacation away from school and he hasn't gotten bored as of yet either. Steff is growing up but refuses to give up her blanket in spite of the fact that it literally looks like a rag. Sadie is just Sadie. She's animated and funny but she still won't talk.
Ryan is doing well. He will be building himself a new computer soon and thus I will get his old one. Which is a good thing since I somehow fried mine or it got a virus. He's been working very hard on our lawn and in the flower gardens. He keeps himself pretty busy with our half acre lawn.
I am getting better with each passing day. It still hurts to do some things but surprisingly enough, it has gotten better a lot faster than I thought it would. I haven't needed much in the way of pain management. Usually an Ibuprofen does me just fine.
The Jeep was totaled out and we got decent money for a down payment on a new vehicle. However, it will be another week or so before we are able to get to hunting for a car. Please say a prayer for us that we find a good vehicle and make a good purchase.
We all hope things are going well for everyone who reads our blog...
With Love,
Tricia

Car Accident

Well, the jeep is totaled or so we think. We're still waiting for the adjusters findings. You see on Sunday I went to Walmart to get some rocks and a new telephone and on my way home I reached down and turned the steering wheel along with my head and bam!!! I hit four boulders which caused the air bags to deploy and the front axle to break. I also broke my sternum and bruised myself up pretty bad. The good thing is that it was just me, no kids...
I'm doing okay...it hurts to do simple things like turning door handles or pushing the button to open the microwave but I'm getting along okay. The sad part is that now we have to get a new vehicle for our family and right now we're kinda stuck home. Ryan said the funniest and most wonderful thing after he found out I was in an accident and that I was okay...He said, "If you wanted a new car you could have just asked." I had to laugh...
At the scene of the accident I refused an ambulance ride to the hospital and they said that if I start feeling like something is wrong that I should go to the hospital. Well, I felt fine until the adrenaline started wearing off and then my chest was very painful...It even hurt to breath. So, Ryan took me to the hospital and that's when they did a CT scan and found my broken sternum. I thought for sure they'd come back and say that I was just bruised. I was then advised that I should agree to being admitted into the hospital because the pain was going to become very intense and they wanted me there so they could manage it. I agreed, so I spent the night in the hospital with high amounts of pain killers being administered. I'm pretty grateful that that first night I wasn't home and that my pain was being managed because it was pretty bad even with all the pain medicine they were giving me. It's still pretty intense and I was told the pain would be pretty bad for about 4 weeks. I'm not looking forward to the next few weeks but I'll be alright. I'm just still so thankful that I didn't have any of my kids with me.

Early to Rise

I'm just an early riser I've decided...Today I woke up at 4:15 am and went right to work on things I don't normally get to do when my children are awake. For instance, I was able to sit down and have a cup of coffee with the Lord. I read and studied my Bible while drinking a cup of coffee. It was wonderful and what a great way to start the day..? I also do things like taking a shower in peace and checking and sending emails. It's just a good time for me to be up and at it. I'm at my best in the morning.
The kids are doing great. As I've mentioned before Kieran is really looking forward to school being out and I think he's even counting the hours. It's pretty entertaining to hear each day that he only has this many days left. But, what am I going to do with him allllll Summer long? He doesn't realize it yet but he's gonna get very bored at some points. And, therefore he'll drive me crazy. I have lots of weeds that need pulling so I'm sure I can find something for him to do. Hehehe...
Steff is starting to get very dark skin from being out in the sun non-stop. She's such a little sun worshiper. She absolutely loves the sun and water. So, to keep her entertained and out of things that an otherwise adorable 3 year old would get into I simply set up her little pool and put her in her swim suit and she's good to go for hours. At some point she'll decide she's thirsty and hungry and come in for nourishment but other than that she plays and plays.
Sadie is doing well. She's making more sounds that sound more like talking each day and Ryan and I believe it won't be long before she starts to talk. He says a month, I say at least 3...we'll see who gets closer. Not that there's any reward but it is bragging rights.
We've come to the conclusion that Sadie's skin isn't nearly as sensitive as we feared it might be. She's been spending quite a bit of time in the sun without a burn or pink skin in sight. She may be like her brother and tan quite well. I sure hope so, I'd hate for her to be super sensitive to the sun her whole life.
Ryan is doing great...he was able to take the entire weekend off. He went golfing on Friday and Saturday and Sunday he spent time with his family and in the yard. We have one flower garden that has been weed matted and is ready for rocks. One down and many to go...But in all seriousness, I think Ryan needed to have a weekend away from work, he's been getting pretty burned out and the weather couldn't have been better.
So that's all that's new in our lives. We sure pray all is well in your lives and that you are walking with the Lord each day. Please take care of yourselves and remember you are loved by us...
Sincerely,
Tricia

Motorboats, Sun Babies and Baseball

Things are going quite well in our neighborhood. The kids are good and healthy and the only crisis we are having is with our garage door-again...
Sadie is doing well, she started making motorboat sounds this morning and she's been doing it all day long. Still not talking but she understands us and smiles and laughs when we tell her "no." She now likes the outside and runs around and plays just fine. We are so happy that she has accepted being outside.
Steff is a sub baby, she loves being outside...I have to lock her inside so she'll take a nap each day.
Kieran is doing great. He's really looking forward to school being out and he's counting the days. He's doing great in baseball. He's been playing catcher this year. He'd really like to pitch but he's a good sport and knows that he's a great catcher. He has a batting average of 667 which is higher than the team average. And, tonight he hit a triple...which I'm sure raised his batting average a little higher...
Ryan is doing wonderful, of course our stimulus check was a little bit more than we thought so we are able to take care of more things and that always makes him happy.
I am doing well myself. I have been reading more and taking more time to spend with my children. Which I need to do now so, I'm going to end this post. I hope all is well in your world...you remain in my prayers...
Tricia

Things Have Been Good

Things have been going well lately. This weekend was a busy one. Ryan worked on Friday and Saturday and then we had family pictures at the duck pond by Weber State University at 1pm. Then home for some yard work and a nap for me. When I woke up Ryan went golfing with a friend from work. I have to admit I wasn't happy but only because they didn't tee off until 6:30pm and thus he didn't get home until 8:30. It wasn't too bad but it would have been nice to spend that time with him...
Sunday was a good day. I really enjoyed my Mother's Day. Ryan was sweet; first off he got up with the kids all night so I could have a solid night of sleep and he let me go to church all by myself and then I came home to more yard work. It's a good thing I'm coming into this gardening thing because we have lots of flower gardens and a big yard. I received a praise wheel and an origami swan from Kieran and a palm plant from Ryan and the girls. Which is something I've always wanted. It's just a baby so hopefully I can raise it to be a big boy without killing it.
Sunday was a busy day...First off I went to church and came home to plant flowers. I then took the girls over to my mom's to take her her Mother's Day gift. We didn't stay long but at least I saw my mom on her day. As soon as we got back we jetted over to my dad's for a bar-b-que. After that we came home and did some more yard work and then it was off to Ryan's mom's for banana splits. They were yummy...We stayed there for a couple hours and then we came home and simply relaxed. It was a great day and a busy yet wonderful weekend.

Pics at the Duck Pond

Here's a picture of all of us at the duck pond by Weber State University...

Two Games Down...

I just wanted to post an update about how well Kieran is doing in baseball this year...He was a base stealing, sliding little player last night. He even beat the ball home and slid in for a run. The score was 3 to 2 and if my memory serves me correct Kieran scored 2 of those runs...that's completely awesome. The whole team played a great game and as you can see from the score it wasn't a wash out like their first game was. The first game the score was something like 12 to 2. They completely killed the other team at that game. They played great last night and I'd like to encourage anyone who's thinking about attending a game to do so, it will be worth it. You'll be amazed at how well Kieran does and what a great player he is. But, ya know the best part? He's very encouraging...He will always cheer on his team mates and even when the other team does something good he'll cheer them on as well. Like last night, there was a kid that struck out and he told them nice try...It's so great to see his sportsmanship. His daddy taught him well and if he were still alive he'd be very proud.

The Great Conclusion

I've decided my children hate me. Or else they'd let me get a few, not just a couple hours of sleep. I wonder what day 5 without sleep is gonna be like? But seriously, I'll be sleeping great and it never fails one of the girls will get up for some reason or other and destroy the possibility that I'm gonna sleep all night. Tonight it was Miss Sadie, she woke up for no apparent reason what-so-ever. Don't they know that mommies aren't nice when they don't get their sleep? Well they should know, they've been living with me for almost a week.
Well, the Lord has a great way of giving us wake up calls. He sent me a good message the other day...I was at Kieran's baseball game and had the scare of my life. I felt a rush of emotions but mostly fear. I can't really explain it in great detail but Steff wandered off and I only had the general direction in which she went. When I found her she was as scared as I was. And, she was just following some kids through a wooded area. I thought I was going to find someone trying to kidnap my kid and all I could think was, "someone is gonna die." I was ready to kill and it wasn't Steff that was my target. I just wanted her back. Needless to say I won't be bringing my daughters to anymore baseball games.
Kieran did great at his first game. He played catcher the whole game and he did a great job. He's such an awesome little catcher. He even frames the ball for the ump. He'll catch a nice hard throw and hold it for a second while he awaits the umps call. It doesn't matter if it was a ball or a strike he just holds it and lets the ump know it was a solid throw. Usually he'll get a strike out of the deal. It's pretty cool to see. And, have you ever tried to play catcher? It's hard stuff with all that gear on. OH....he also got a kid out at home...the kid slid and Kieran nailed his little butt to the wall first. It was awesome. He did good at batting too. He hit a line drive and unfortunately got out because the kid caught it but it was a beautiful hit anyway.
Well, I've updated you on the latest with the kids and informed you I'm still not sleeping so there isn't much else to say at 2:30 in the morning so I'm gonna go find a semi comfortable place to lay my head and try and catch some more sleep.

Livin' on 2 Hours of Sleep

I was up literally all night long and for no particular reason other than I could not sleep. I got two total hours of sleep. I slept from 12-1 and 4-5...Don't think I didn't try either because all I did was lay there and do everything I could think of to catch a few zzz's...I counted sheep, I talked to the Shepard, I did deep breathing, meditation...you name it, I bet I tried it. And, yet nothin' but yawning...I feel a little delirious this morning. I really feel kinda dizzy because I'm so tired. My eyes are burning and my back didn't get the rest it needed to recoup itself so it's hurtin all ready. What I wouldn't give for some sleeping pills and a back adjustment.
This weekend was pretty nice. Nothing new to report just that the weather may be making a turn for the better? Don't quote me on that but it just might be. Of course, you watch we'll have one of the hottest summers we've ever had since we've had such a cold Spring. I don't know that I'm too excited for something like that but I'm ready for flowers, humming birds, green grass and swimming in the heat. I know my kids are ready for it too, they're sick of being cooped up in the house and want to get out and run. Steff was even asking Ryan to get her pool out yesterday.

Up All Night

I think I'm gonna be up all night. Sadie pooped at some point during her sleep or shortly before she fell asleep and when Ryan came home to go to bed he got her up to change her bum. She decided it was a mighty fine time to be awake and that was an hour ago. I figure by the time she's ready to go back to sleep it will be time for me to get up for the day. It's another sleepless night. I'm getting pretty tired of these and yet pretty used to them too.
I've blogged a lot lately and mostly about my sleepless nights. I guess that's okay, it's life around here. I wonder if Ryan knows what a sleepless night is? I know he's up late but he also has me letting him sleep a minimum of 7 hours a night too. He never has to get up and stay up with kids. He's lucky that way.
It was an interesting day. I managed to sprain my ankle while getting up to use the bathroom at 2 or so in the morning so I could hardly move all day. Which was okay I guess since my back wasn't doing so swell either. It just hurt and I felt uncomfortable all day. It made it hard to do things for my kids and to do things in general. Somehow my house ended up clean though I'm not sure where the energy or physical ability to do that came from.
When Kieran got home from school he was ornery and just a little stinker. He was demanding and just seemed irritated with anything I said to him. Nothing seemed good enough and he was quite mean to me. I didn't like it much at all and I didn't think I deserved it either. It was irritating to be treated so mean by someone I hadn't even done anything to. He snapped out of it though and things went smooth the rest of the night.
I'm thinking this being up and blogging about things stuff sucks. I would much rather be with the rest of the sleeping world and that would be a new change for me too. I'm starting to wonder what it's like to sleep at night...I think I'm starting to wonder what it's like to sleep at all. I get a couple of hours and then I'm awake again. No wonder I feel worn out all day long.

Middle of the Night Adventure in Parenting

It's 3 am and I've been up with Steff for about an hour for the second night in a row. Last night I wrote that I wasn't sure if she had a bug or if the medicine made her sick but I soon learned the truth...it was and is a bug. You see, she continued throwing up and then she got diarrhea...that's what the story is for tonight...thus far anyway. I'll take pooping over barfing though. Once you're a parent of a child who doesn't get the concept of what their body is doing when it throws up and therefore doesn't make any attempt at getting to the bathroom, you'll understand...It's nuts...you feel like you're up to your elbows in throw up and at least a diaper somewhat contains the poop.
Honestly, though I mostly feel bad for her. She keeps telling me her back hurts and that her tummy hurts too. I know, as does everyone, the cramps of diarrhea so it's got be really bad for her. She just knows her tummy hurts and not why. I love my little girl and it's hard to see her sick. As a parent I have learned more patience than I thought I'd ever have. You have to have patience when your kids are little and sick. Of course, I don't know anything but "little" kids. Kieran's getting big but he was little first...
I wonder how long our adventure is going to last tonight? I was up til 5:30 last night with her. That's when she finally fell asleep. I got a total of 5 hours of sleep so I was pooped all day but I did okay. Again, with the "do as you gotta do" talk...It wasn't as rotten of a day as I thought it would be, I got to go back to sleep for an hour after she fell back to sleep so that helped. Besides, I'm an insomniac at heart anyway...I'd think I was a vampire but I don't get to sleep during the day either...
Wish me luck and say a short prayer for me and for Steff for healing...please.

A Little More Sleep

Well, I got another hour of sleep to help me out for the day. I laid down at 5:30 and woke up to Steff throwing up again at 6:30. I felt bad for her but it wasn't any big deal. I do have to wash the cushion covers of the couch now but that's small fries in comparison to how it makes her feel when she does that. She's too young to understand why stuff is coming out of her mouth and she's definitely too young to get the concept to run to the toilet. It's okay though. After her experience she laid down, I got her a clean blanket and she quickly fell back to sleep.
It's been an interesting night to say the least. We had three throw up sessions, one of which she was laying with Ryan and he almost got nailed. I'm starting to think that she has a stomach bug and not so much that the ibuprofen made her sick but I don't know. She hasn't been running a fever so I keep second guessing the "bug" thought. I guess we'll wait and see if it subsides. Time will tell but one thing I can say is that it's been interesting...

Kieran's Bad Day

Well, Kieran came home from school yesterday in foul mood. He's claiming that everyone hates him. He even said that he was told that they(the kids at school) wish he had died. He said, "me too." When I asked him why he wishes he had died he said so he could see his daddy. I just felt so bad but relieved that his reason was that and not that everyone hates him.
I need to make him an appointment with Kluthe so he can go in and get things off his chest. He's been doing so well that I haven't made the appointment. He hasn't seemed like he needs to go but more and more he comes home saying all the kids at school don't like him. I ask him why and he always comes up with a different reason. This time it was because of his teeth. He needs braces but we can't even think about getting them for him until all of his adult teeth come in. The funny part is that he wants braces pretty bad too, he's always changing his mind as to what color he wants the rubber bands to be.
I feel bad for him when he comes home from school after having a bad day but in the same token he's so crabby that you can hardly stand how he treats everyone else. I just try to tell him sorry and sympathize with him. What else can you do? I can't make it all better but I can be there for him to express his feelings.
Last night he ended up having a good day. He and some friends had a water fight outside and then we went to Grandma Diane's birthday party at McGrath's Fish House. It was a good time and helped him see that he's loved and accepted by some people. He's a good kid and he needs to learn to not let the kids at school get to him because let's face it, kids are cruel.

Poor, Poor Steffanie

As Steff would say, "Poor, poor, Steffanie." She's having a bad night. She woke up at 2am saying her back hurt and so I gave her some ibuprofen and she got sick to her stomach from that. She's been crying about her back one minute then her stomach the next. Poor girl. She must have gotten sick from the medicine because she threw up twice.
Right now her and Ryan are laying on the couch together and she's watching Sprout while he tries to catch some sleep. He just got home from work about an hour ago (3:30 is when he gets home)and I'm up for the day. I have been since Steff woke me up from her back hurting.
It's gonna be a long day...but hopefully Steff's back will stop hurting and she can get some more sleep. If she falls asleep I'm gonna try to get some more sleep and I'll also send Ryan to bed. If not, then it's really gonna be a long day.
She's not going to sleep...she's saying her back and her neck are "scratchy." My mom is coming over to visit tonight but I don't know that I'm gonna be doing much visiting. I think I'll ask her for a nap if things don't get better and I don't get some more sleep.
I just sent Ryan to bed because Steff was acting and talking like she's feeling a little better. There's no reason for both of us to be up and he's had a long night.
There are so many adventures as a parent. If you're reading this and haven't had kids yet then hang on to your socks when you do because if you're not the type that can be up all night and then go all day then you better not have kids. Of course, you also get to the point where you just do it because you have to. It's not fun and it's not easy but you find the energy and the way to take care of everything.

Steff & Outdoors

Steff is such an outside kinda kid. She and I really had a good time yesterday afternoon once Kieran got home. Kieran was hot from his walk home from school so he and his buddy Braxton hung out in the house for a little while when they got home and Steff wanted to get out and play. So, I asked Kieran to keep on eye on Sadie and I took Steff outside.
Right here I'd like to pause and make the comment that he did really well watching Sadie. I guess Rexxy was biting at Sadie's hands and he even made her cry one time. So, Kieran put him in his kennel because he wouldn't stop. That's a good big brother...
Anyway, Steff and I had a great time. She played on the slide for a while, and she rode her four-wheeler and she also played in the sandbox for a few by herself but together we played catch and batted. It was a great time. I don't get down and play with my kids often enough I've decided. I guess it's just ingrained into me because my parents didn't do it for me? I've tried to be better in the areas my parents weren't so great in and playing with my kids is something I can do better.
She watered the flowers too. Or should I say she made mud puddles? Either way you want to look it, it was cute. She would spray the plants for a minute until she found a low spot in the ground then she'd fill it up with water and play with the mud for a minute and move on to the next spot. That lasted for quite a while and she and I talked while she was doing it so we were spending time together. She did this until at some point she sprayed herself. I wasn't there, I had run into the house to get a drink when she came in soaked and wanting to change her clothes. I toweled her off, told her she was dry and back outside she went.
It was such a memorable time with her and it makes me want to give her more attention in the area of getting down on her level and playing. I think I'll remember what a great time we had and be better at that.

Outside & Sadie

Our little peanut does not like it outside and we've come up with many theories why that might be possible. There was the light theory; where we thought that she didn't like the brightness of outside because her eyes are so blue and light eyes reflect the sun. Then there was the internally knowing her skin is fair and being wary of the sun and it's burning power. Then there was the theory that she was born at the wrong time of the year and she probably is used to being indoors or maybe she likes the cold better. But, I think we hit the nail on the head this last time...see we were sitting outside yesterday and she was with us. We had sat in the same spot for quite some time and she began to wander off into the yard from the patio but she would come back to one of us and give our legs a squeeze and be off again. This happened over and over with each venture being a little longer and more inquisitive. So, we came up with the theory that she likes the safety and confinement of the house. All she really ever knew was being swaddled and close to someone when she was new. Maybe she's afraid of the open space of the outdoors? We don't know for sure but after watching her yesterday our latest theory makes the most sense. Or maybe it's a combination of all the theories? Who knows? We know one thing, we've got to get her used to outside because she can't hang out in the house all alone and we're outdoors kind of people. All of us, except her...

How We're Doing

It was a wonderful weekend...the weather was beautiful and we were productive in our yard and around the house. Ryan, his sister and our brother in-law had rented a power rake and thus, the project began...Ryan power raked on Saturday and on Sunday after church we went and raked our entire 1/2 acre yard by hand. It was tedious but we came up with a system that worked great and was less tiring. I would rake and Ryan would rest and play with kids or just chat with me then we'd trade. We did this over and over until the yard was raked. Then we broke out the lawn tractor and trailer and we cleaned up the piles of dead grass. We didn't do it completely by ourselves though we had my sister, Tayler helping us and so Ryan took her and Steff (who also helped in her own little way and the best she could) on a ride around the yard. They loved it and we appreciated the help. It was a great time for Ryan and I. We got to spend good, quality time together, even if it was working.
Kieran has been a great kiddo lately. He's always helping with his sisters and he's been doing his chores. Nothing new in school to talk about but I think things are going well. I'm waiting for an email response from his teacher on how he's doing and I'll update when I get it.
Sadie is growing well and her allergies have eased up. We thank God for that because she had them so bad. She has had a diaper area yeast infection that required some topical cream to get rid of and she somehow got a rash called Feliculitis that covered her entire body and required an antibiotic to treat. It's getting better and no one else in the house has come down with it so again, we praise the Lord.
Steff really enjoyed this weekend with being able to be outside most of the time. She just really loves being outside. She's a little nature junkie too, she's always catching spiders and other bugs to show us. She's learned or better yet grown to love her four wheeler. She had a hard time at first with it, she couldn't get the steering thing down and we had to keep rescuing her from the fences. She eventually got it and now she just cruises all over the yard until the battery is totally dead. Then, of course we put it on the charger and wait the long 16 hours for tomorrow to come so we can replace the battery and set her free to roam. It's so cute to see. The dog loves it too, he chases it and gets in her way and at the last second her jumps out of the way. She of course, chases him and laughs her little hinney off.
Ryan is doing pretty good himself. He's worried about money but there's nothing new there. He's been in great spirits and very helpful. He was worth his weight in gold while I was recovering from my surgery. He even wrote me little love notes letting me know he appreciated all I was doing in spite of how I was feeling. How wonderful that was. He did a lot this weekend with power raking and then vacuuming and cleaning the basement to get ready to move our things down there. He's just really been great...
I have been doing much better. I had a hard time with my nose while I had the splints (not stints) in it but a few days(I'd say 4)after they were removed I was almost back to my old self. Granted I still cannot blow my nose or bend over. That will only be a couple of days longer though and then when I wake up May 1st the first thing I'm doing is blowing my nose. It will be such a new experience. I can now wear makeup. I actually was able to put foundation on my face without causing extreme pain. It was nice to not hurt. My first pain free day was Friday and it's a blessing it was pain free with all that running around I did. But, that's enough about my nose. . .I'm doing well, very well and in spite of having my mom move out I've been very good at doing the dishes and the laundry. She was a big help but it's not as hard as I thought it was going to be. I praise God for that, He's really been a big part of my strength.
Well, that's the latest on how we're doing and we pray that each and every one of you is having a great day and that your life is blessed.
All My Love,
Tricia

Runnin' Around

Well, here I sit at 2am, wide awake, again...This time it's been interesting though because I have a case of the sneezies...I have sneezed well over ten times and I don't see an end in sight. I think there's something inside the right side, which is also the side I had fixed so it's not like I can do any digging around for the source, if you know what I mean? I'll just keep spraying everything in site until they stop.
So, yesterday was a busy day, that started at 11:10 and we didn't get home to relax until after 3:30. The girls and I were literally on the go.
It all started with me needing my depo shot...so I went to the doc and came home. But, while I was at the docs I had called my sister and found out that she was starving and couldn't find anyone to bring her something to eat. I volunteered but mostly because I had some samples of the medication she's on and I needed to get them to her any way. I figured I'd be gone 45 minutes tops since she works across town. Well, when we got there she needed to run home for her cell charger. So we did...I got her back to work and made the trek back across town. It had taken me an hour and half to do that I discovered.
Well, I got the girls all dolled up and off we went to the pharmacy. I'm on a first name basis with half the staff and most of the pharmacists. Sad, I know...but helpful too...once they know who you are you just give them your d.o.b and all is well and things are taken care of faster. What can I say, we take a lot of medication around this house. Anyway, I picked up the two prescriptions I had available and off we went.
We arrived at Dr. Silas's office at 2:30 and we were there for about 45 minutes. I promised Ryan we'd come visit him after the appointment and bring him something for a headache and we did. I'm sure you're curious why I was at the pediatricians office, which kid is sick? Well, Sadie has a wicked diaper rash which come to find out is really a yeast infection. She also has a rash on her body that come to find out, is a bacterial infection of the skin and she needs antibiotics to get rid of it. I was glad I had made the appointment when all this was out in the air.
While at Ryan's work I noticed Jessica had forgotten her medication so I ran that back to her. Which really was not a big deal, I was in the neighborhood anyway. Once finished with that we were finally able to make the long ride and come home. We got home close to 4pm and we stayed home, I was finished at this point. But my day didn't stop there. I still had my daily chores to do...pick up, laundry(which I have to do at least two loads a day or it backs up), dishes and making dinner. I got most of it all done and at about 9:30 I was able to rest my tired body and my exhausted mind. We haven't had a day like that in a long time and the girls were real troopers and didn't make any fuss. Well accept for when it was time to leave daddy...all hell broke lose. Sadie cried herself to sleep and Steff waved bye-bye and yelled "love you, daddy" over and over. It was cute to see them both react to leaving daddy. Even all the tears Sadie cried were cute.
So, again, here I sit. My body is tired and my mind is on the go. I'll be up another hour and half before I'm finally able to catch a couple more hours of sleep before the girls get up. It's days like this that make me glad I usually only set one appointment at a time each day of the week. Off to do something else now...maybe create an inspirational email...?
Be good and remember you are loved by some one-Jesus.
Tricia

Just Stuff

I think I'm coming to the end of my smoking phase. Granted it's a phase that's lasted 14 years. So, can it really be called a phase? It's getting to the point where it simple put, burns when I inhale. I don't enjoy it like I used to. I guess it's the Lord's way of showing me it's time to end this unhealthy life and move into a better way of life. I do know one thing, when my doc told me I had developed Reactive Lung Disease I felt like I had been slapped in the face. It was truly a wake up call. It was like seeing what smoking has done for my life and I wondered how long it would be before I was told I have emphysema? Just another reason to quit...
Steff and Sadie are at war. I got Steff some juice and a bowl of chips. Sadie is sneaky and will see the bowl and come a runnin' to get a piece of whatever the contents are. She'll steal a chip or popcorn or whatever it is and take off in another direction only to finish the goodie and come back for more. As for Steff's part in this whole facade, she'll just sit there crying and telling Sadie, "Nooooo, Sadie No." It's quite hilarious. They're sure at it this morning. I have to say the most annoying part is when Sadie gets a hold of Steff's juice...she'll attack it and take a swigg and then toss it aside and usually it will spill as she's tossing it and then it slowly leaks out all over the carpet. For Steff's part in this, she simply sits there and whines, "Juuuuice...." It gets old jumping up from what I'm doing and running to the rescue of the juice and my carpet. But the whole thing in it's own right is funny.
As my cute, little, rebel dog learns to pee with his leg lifted I have to laugh...He always, and I do mean always...pees on himself. Usually it's just the back of his front two legs or he'll hit his belly once in a while and one day he even peed on his own face. It was absolutely the funniest thing I've seen him do yet. It almost takes the cake for one of my top ten funniest moments. You see he didn't just pee on his face, he kept looking down to see if he could lower his head as he peed. So each time he did that, he'd bob his head back and then down into the pee and back up and back down all the while just nailing himself with his own urine...It was awesome.
I'm feeling pretty good. Now that my nose isn't so painful I'm remembering the pain in my back. I at least have a reason for being in pain. At my last doc appointment I learned I have Scoliosis. I have lived with back pain since my early twenties and never had x-rays to learn of my condition. Don't get me wrong it's not serious but it is serious enough that I have to wear a silly back brace all the time. I also have Lidocaine patches and I'm pushing for Neurontin therapy since the patches will cost us $180 a month. They work though and it's sad they're so expensive. I'm just honestly glad that I'm not just making this pain up in my head. I was seriously starting to wonder if maybe it was all in my head and that I just wanted the medication that goes along with being in pain but that's not the case at all. I'm so relieved even if it means I won't get any better. I think my sister Jessica might have it too, I know my brother Matt has it. Jess complains of the same pain I'm in and she visits her doctor on a regular basis looking for relief just like I do...I really hope she doesn't and that there is another answer to her problem cuz folks let's face the facts here, Scoliosis doesn't get better or go away...
I'm looking forward to the days when I can be back to full duty. Sounds weird I know...but, hey I've been told I can't bend, lift, strain, or blow my nose for two weeks. So I have to keep sniffing snot into the back of my throat and thus spit it out. I know that's sick but it's also reality and that's what blogs are-reality. I can't even pick up the toys that are always left all over the house because it requires bending. But, ya know what my darling and wonderful husband did? He wrote me a letter thanking me for doing all the things I can do. I've been keeping up with what I can, like the dishes and the laundry and in the meantime I have to ask Ryan for his help with the bending stuff.
I've also been journaling...Which brings up a story...You see, my brother in-law and sister in-law gave me a very beautiful journal as a baptismal gift and I was using it well. I had written a lot about the pain my nose was causing and what I was going through and how my life has been when I had a moment of peace. I don't know how that happened but at some point I was able to run a nice hot bath to soak in...I put some cornstarch and lavender in the water because they are both good for your skin and lavender has such relaxing properties. When it went all down hill...I had placed my journal on the side of the tub in preparation for my experience. As I stepped in I also forgot that cornstarch on the bottom of the tub is very slippery and thus my left foot slid causing my right knee to bend and bump the journal right into the water. At this point it's too late to save the water damage of the journal but I figured I could at least pull it out before it sunk to the bottom. I was so upset and in pain, so tears weren't far off but, I collected myself and placed my once lovely journal on a towel. I took a very short bath and it wasn't relaxing like it was intended to be. Isn't that the way life goes?
Well folks, it's time for me to do something and make something of my day. It's gonna be a busy one with two different doctor's appointments today but at least it will go by fast...Take care of yourselves and remember the Lord loves everything about you...
Tricia

Recent Pictures

Here are the latest pictures of our family and the going is good. We haven't hit any major milestones or had anything exciting happen lately so there's really nothing new to blog about. But don't they all look cute anyway..?

Surgery and Recovery

So, I just notice I haven't typed about having surgery at all and I figured late was better than never. If you don't already know I had a Septoplasty and a Bilatteral Terbinate Reduction on the 16th, just over a week ago...Basically what he(the doc) did was straighten my deviated septum. It was about 75 percent deviated and causing quite a few breathing problems in the right side of my nose.
The surgery went well and I recovered pretty quickly in the hospital. What they didn't tell me was that the pain meds they gave me would wear off and I'd feel like crap for only heaven knows how long. Because, I'm still feeling like garbage and super tired all the time. I didn't realize how surgery just zaps the energy right out of you...I have only been this tired when I was pregnant and I know that's not true since they took a pregnancy test before I went in for surgery. Now back to the pain thing...
I tried to put makeup on my face the other day...It brought tears to my eyes and I vowed to never do that again until I was sure I was completely healed. My mom always said, "you have to suffer to be beautiful," but this was a little on the overboard side if you ask me. So, if you're vain don't get this surgery done because you'll bring tears to your eyes each time you slap on the foundation.
What have I learned from this experience? I wouldn't do it again. I'd leave things the way they were. So far the improvements in my breathing aren't worth the pain that I've been in. I don't know that I'll say that in a month from now or even in a year from now but for now that's the truth.

Here I Sit

Here I sit, hurting at 4 in the morning. I thought the pain of this surgery would have subsided already but I'm actually in more pain now. Maybe it's because of the stints up my nose? Maybe it's because I got kneed in the face and it brought me to my knees in tears? Who knows? I know only one thing-the pain killers aren't working. I called my doctor and he was in surgery, he told me to go to the emergency room. Hell no! $100 co-pay, forget it....I'll suffer. I did think about it though, they have good painkillers there. Something that would take the edge off the hurt.
All I want are these stints out. I want the space in my nose to be free from plastic. Plastic is a great invention, until you have it shoved up your nose for a week. I'd take the things out myself but he stitched them in and I'm not sure where the stitches are to cut them out. That's how bad these things are affecting my lifestyle. I know why he said to take a week off work...you can't concentrate, all you think about is your nose and how uncomfortable and painful it is. And, again, the painkillers aren't working, they're actually a joke. I take them anyway hoping they provide relief. No such luck yet.
I'm sick of sniffing...boogers down the back of your throat...Gross. I have been a spitting machine. I wish they'd let me blow my nose cuz it's full of gunk. I shouldn't be writing of this stuff but it reality.
The only thing that feels good down the back of my throat is of all things; warm coffee. Good thing I love coffee.
Ya know the nose is more sensitive than we've ever given it credit for. I can feel wear these stitches are by the pain they bring. I can't wait to get these stints out of my nose!
There's nothing quite like having something to look forward to. For me, it's these stints coming out of my nose. I dream of free breathing days. I can see myself running through a meadow, breathing in the flowers and the fresh air. And, of course, I'm pain free.
I don't know if I hurt from the surgery or if it's these stints shoved up my nostrils.
Well, I'm gonna go put ice on my nose and see if I can get some more sleep...

Baptisms, Allergies and Sweet Husbands

I am officially a Baptist...I took the plunge and was baptized Sunday night. It was such an invigorating experience. As I went into the water I felt heavy and burdened and as I emmerged I felt like I was going to fly off like a bird. It was the best feeling I've ever experienced. I would recommend it to anyone. Of course, there is something to be said for accepting Jesus Christ as your personal Savior. . .I did about 6 years ago on Easter...I finally understood that Christ had died for my sins, not everyone's, like I'd known for years...It was my sins he died for. I wasn't worthy of such love but He was always faithful and showed me this for years and years. That's why I was baptized. I realized the love Jesus has for me and it was my turn to be obedient and do as He commanded in the Bible.
I had a great support system at my baptism. Ryan's siblings and their spouses came and so did my mother in-law and step father in-law. And, of course my wonderful mother was there. My son was really impacted by this event and he's stated that he wants to be baptized as well. He loved hearing the cheering and whistling as I came out of the water. I know my son has accepted Christ as his personal Savior, he did so a long time ago. I wish I had been so young, maybe I would have saved myself some hard lessons? God's timing is perfect and I cannot complain about the way my life has went. I've learned a lot...a lot about what I want and don't want in my life and that the center of my life needs to be Christ.
The rest of our family is doing well. We thought for a minute that we might have to find Rexxy a new home due to some serious allergy flair ups. Everyone seems to be doing better now though and the dog is still our youngest member.
Ryan is doing well. He's been so sweet and wonderful lately. As you may or may not know, my mom moved out this last weekend and Ryan took the innitative and found some help to help her move so that I didn't have to strain my back. He was worried about my back and didn't want me doing anything. He also took off 3 days for my surgery recovery. . .He was right there standing at the side of the baptismal font while I was baptized and he's just been Mr. Sweet-heart lately. I love it when he's like this. What woman wouldn't love it?
Kieran is doing well also...He's been his usual self but now he wants to be baptized. I think he's ready and I asked him if he'd like to do it with me before I made the decision. He said no, he wasn't ready but seeing me do it must have inspired him. He's been a good kid at school. No fights lately. His teacher sends me emails saying he's a joy to have in his class and that he's entertaining.
Steff is doing great. We still haven't started potty training but we're working on it...At least we're trying to psyche her up for it. She has been enjoying the weather, she just loves being outside. I am also impressed with her vocabulary and she's always saying something to crack us up.
Sadie is doing wonderful...she is starting to babble quite a bit so hopefully she'll be talking soon. My mom and I have this joke going that now that she's moved out Sadie will start talking...She has had allergies probably worse than anyone in the house. She gets big bags under eyes, a cough and the worst runny nose. She seems to be getting a little better though so that's good.
Not much has been happening-as you can see....We are doing well and looking forward to this Summer. It's been a long, cold winter and Spring hasn't been all too warm either. We hope all is well everyone else's world and that you feel the Lord's blessings in your life.
All My Love,
Tricia

Being Baptized

I've made the leap...I am going to be baptized Baptist this Sunday the 13th at 7pm...I'm so looking forward to taking a dunk into the Holy Font. I know my Lord wants me to do this and that this is my next step in the journey we all have called "life." I knew this was something that had been impressed upon my heart for quite a long period of time and each time I turned around baptism was the subject of so many different discussions. The Lord was yelling out to me to get my hide in gear and get it done.
I must let you know of my conviction...I know the Lord suffered and died for my sins, He lived a perfect existence but lived the life of a peasant so I could go home to my Father. As I sit here and reflect on the journey that I've had with the Lord my eyes well up with tears. He's been so faithful and forgiving in all the wrong-doings of my life. If you think back, He's been just as faithful to you too. In the depths of all the darkness that I've endured He was there with His light and His love to help me see how much He loves me. I can finally say I found home on earth...It's in my Lord's presence. So, now it's my turn to be obedient and be baptized.

Oh...The Allergies

Oh...man our house has something in it that is driving us all to the brink of scratching our eyes out and coughing our lungs up. To be honest, I think it's the dog. I hate to say it but he's the only thing that has changed since we all started coming down with major allergies. Of course, we are coming in to allergy season as well so we've decided to see what happens for a while before we go and find Rexxy a new home.
Ryan and Kieran went to the doc together the other day and most things are well. Ryan's left leg (I think it's his left) is 1/2 inch shorter than his right so he needs to get inserts for that shoe. Kieran has reactive lung that is associated with allergies and has an inhaler now that he uses 4 times a day. They both are in great health other than these minor ailments.
Steff went to see Dr Silas for her 3 year well check and it was discovered she has 2 ear infections and he put her on an inhaler too-for the same thing...allergies. He's also worried she might have asthma and if the inhaler doesn't improve things within the next two weeks he wants to see her again for some further looking at. He thinks it's most likely just allergies though since her lungs sound very good.
Sadie is suffering from a runny nose and red, itchy eyes. She's on Zyrtec for that and it seems to help when it's not causing her to get an upset tummy and thus, lose her lunch. She has been a little cuddle bug lately and she's finally reaching out for us when she wants to be picked up. Still no talking though.
I am doing well. I have been wearing my back brace non-stop and it really helps my back. I'm actually hardly in any pain since I've been wearing it so much. My nose gets fixed on the 16th and I'm really looking forward to being able to breath. The time just doesn't seem to get here fast enough.
My mom is moving out this Saturday. Ryan has assembled a crew to get it all done and taken care of in matter of hours instead of taking the whole weekend. I worry that she'll miss her little angels since she's been here since they were born but I have faith that this is the best thing for her. She's excited to have space of her own and not worry about making too much noise when she's cleaning or listening to music. I think it will be good for all of us...
Ryan and I had a great therapy session yesterday and we're learning that our problems are deeper than just money they are more in the area of each of us needing to feel important to the other person. I have been being super good with money this time around in hopes that I can show Ryan that his feelings of needing to provide for his family are important to me.
Well, that's about it for now. Hope you feel a little more informed.
Tricia
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Had a Good Saturday

I must be crazy or an insomniac...It's 4am and I'm up blogging because there's nothing else to do while I wait for Steff to go back to sleep. She woke up coughing and said she had a "beaver"(fever)and a "cratchy throat." She was a little warm but nothing serious so I gave her some cough suppressant and laid her down and now I'm playing the waiting game.
I also had to take the dog out to pee. He was in his kennel whining to use the bathroom which is the first time he's done that but we're trying to house train him so I figured it was important to get him out.
I'm feeling pretty pooped at this point and my typing is something to be desired but hey I'm being a good mommy and pet owner. Oh, the priceless and thankless gifts of parenthood.
Ryan and I had a good day...Saturday that is. We finally cleaned the garage and got it all organized. It feels really good to have it clean and it was nice to spend the time together. We always enjoy each others company. I guess that's one of the many reasons we have such a good marriage.
Kieran has had a busy weekend. Friday night he went and stayed the night at Gram's and Saturday he had a birthday party to attend. Then his cousins were over at Gram's so he went back over there later Saturday for some movies and cousin time. I hope he's enjoyed his weekend cuz they aren't always so full of excitement.
My mom is going to be moving out next weekend. That's the biggest news. I'm so looking forward to having our house to ourselves. It's gonna be a lot of work getting all our stuff down the stairs but it will be worth it when it's all said and done. Oh and we're gonna be sore when that happens, oh the pains of aging. If this is what thirty has to offer I'm scared of fifty and higher.
I forgot to put in my last blog that Dr E discovered I have slight Scholiosis. Nothing serious but enough to cause pain and for my spine to come out of wack easily. He gave me lidocaine patches which work like a charm in most spots but there's one area of my back that just doesn't respond to them and the cost is outragious. We paid 180 for 60 patches. That's 3 bucks a patch...They are gold in this house.
Sadie has been cuter than a button lately. She's getting so smart and so animated. She will get upset when she can't reach something and she'll try multiple ways before she either cries or gives up.
Ryan's demeanor has changed. He's grateful for what he has now. You see, I watched Jenn's twins on Tuesday and Wednesday and just having 2 extra kids in the house made him appreciate only having 3 kids. He's really been doing much better and he's come out of his funk. Which is the Ryan that I know.

Green

It just wouldn't be me if I didn't once in a while type some sort of strange blog...So, here it is...I have come to the conclusion that I love the color green...Yes, folks, my favorite color is green. Maybe it's because purple was my favorite color for years and I finally got a little ill from it. Now don't get me wrong, I still like purple but I love green...All shades of green but particularly...lime green. Maybe it has something to do with my love of Summer and the beautiful green grass? I don't know but I want everything in this color. I love wearing the color and it goes great with my green eyes. Hey, maybe that's another reason I love it so much...I have green eyes that I've been staring at since I was a teenager...They used to be blue, grey, green, yellow(yeah, really strange)...Basically they changed with my clothes and my mood. It was like mood eyes or something weird like that. I have never been normal ya know..?
Anyway, was bored and had to get this color revelation off my chest...Remember, drink coffee cuz life's short so you might as well stay awake for it...
Tricia

The Latest Going Ons

It's been an interesting time since my last post. The kids are doing well. Steff just celebrated her big 3. She was so excited for her party that that's all we heard about for a week straight. She really did a good job and didn't have any hyperactive moments on the day of her party. So, no meltdowns. She even blew the candles out on her cake.
Kieran is doing well. I sign him up for baseball tomorrow and he's stoked. He's done well in school all year and his room is a disaster area. His turtle needs new water and we're learning that that is just the age he's at. He's really helpful with his sisters and goes out of his way to help me out.
Sadie is doing well also...still not talking but she understands a lot of what you say to her now or at least her actions show that she understands. I think she's on strike and knows that we know her cries and fusses so why talk?
Ryan is fed up with life and has no problem saying so. I guess I can't blame him he works OT and takes care of kids when he's not at work. I know I get sick of doing my job and cleaning house all the time. So, he's entitled to be fed up with it all. He doesn't stay in these funks long so I'm sure he'll see the sun soon-at least that's my prayers for him.
I am 30 and falling apart...I have Reactive Lung Disease which is like Asthma, a Deviated Septum that is moderate to severe and I have back pain that is not responding to any treatment. Other than that I'm doing famously well. I go in for surgery on the 16th to get my septum fixed and I'm looking forward to being able to breath for the first time since I can remember. Things aren't so bad, at least things are looking up and being discovered now instead of later...Praise the Lord.
As you can see we are all doing pretty well and we keep a positive attitude. Take care of you and yours; next to God they're the only things you really have in life...Oh...and life is short so drink coffee and stay awake for it.
Tricia

Things Have Changed

Well, the Jeep is finally running. We got the part on Thursday and no matter how much I begged Ryan to leave work and put it in he didn't. Of course, that's the kind of great man he is...he'd rather wait to fix the Jeep as long as he's providing for his family. I was so excited to have the Jeep back that in spite of the registration being expired I took it to the car wash around the corner and gave it a bath. After sitting for as long as it did it had dust on it...I figured out one of the reasons the Lord allowed us the opportunity of having our vehicle broke down...so I'd appreciate having it. I know I took advantage of having a nice vehicle to drive whenever and where ever I pleased. So Praise the Lord for His lessons. . .
Sadie has taken a turn for the better...all of sudden she seems to be more firm in her steps. It was crazy how she went from toddling one day to walking with confidence the next day. She still...isn't talking but she gives "high fives" and lots of kisses...
Steff has been going to bed at a decent hour lately and that is so nice because then I can watch the news for a minute and get to bed at a decent hour myself. She also has been a good girl. She has been minding better since she's been sleeping better. I love it and I feel so much more rested and not so worn out. I know she must feel the same otherwise I don't think she'd be such a good kid throughout the day.
Kieran is doing good...He'll be signed up for baseball this week. He said he doesn't want to play baseball this year but we know he needs the extra activities in the summer so we're going to sign him up and convince him to play. He really wanted to play soccer but the best I could do was to get him on a waiting list. He did really well with the news and said that was okay and I figured out the times for sign ups for the fall season so he should at least be able to play this fall.
Ryan is doing well, as well as can be expected considering he's been working a little more OT with Steff's birthday coming and needing to get the Jeep registered. He's such a great provider and I cannot say enough good about this quality. He has been super patient with Steff lately and we've learned that talking to her about her behavior works a lot better than raising our voices.
I am doing great. Really looking forward to Easter and holding our little household Easter egg hunt. I bought some cute things for the kids and we've got a few golden and one platinum egg with money in them. Kieran was so cute. He was worried that he might be the only one to find the eggs with money in them and that Steff and Sadie would have to go without. He said if he's the one who finds the eggs that he's gonna share the money with his sisters. How sweet is that?
This year for Easter we have plans to go to my dad's for lunch around 1:oo and then to Ryan's mom's for dinner at 3:00...It will be busy but I'm sure it will be fun to spend all that time with family.
I'm so very excited for Easter! I could go on and on about what gifts we got the kids, all the fun stuff we got for the egg hunt and how excited I am to spend time with our families. I just love Easter and it always seems to really kick off Spring. It's like it's not really Spring until we've had Easter. And, according to that theory Spring comes early this year.
Ryan and I are doing well together. We haven't been to see our therapist yet since the the last time I posted but we've been doing really well in spite of it. We've really been leaving the lines of communication open so that each of us feels safe expressing our feelings to the other. And, if you're married you know how important feeling safe while communicating is.
Well that's all the updates I have for now. Please take care of yourselves...
Tricia

It's Been Too Long

It's been far too long since I last updated and posted. Not a whole lot has happened. Things are pretty much the same. We've had a few doctor's appointments and our Jeep is still out of commission but things somehow change yet stay the same.
Kieran is doing well in school and getting a long with his sisters pretty well. He did get into a scuffle on Friday but it was no big deal. He finally got to go to Aeropostale and get some clothes which he thought was totally cool and he learned that doing his chores does get him some cool stuff. That was a great lesson for him and he saw the fruits of his labor. He's been talking a lot about playing soccer this spring but unfortunately I found out today that there's a long waiting list and so, I emailed the gal and asked how I could get him on the list for Fall sign ups now...I'm hoping he at least gets to play this fall since spring is out this year. I know now how to get him signed up and that was the first step. He handled the disappointment pretty well as he usually does.
Steff has been sleeping better with a lot of thanks to her pediatrician who put her on Amytritiline. It's a medication that's commonly used for children with major sleep disturbances. We had to do something for her she was only getting 6 to 8 hours of sleep in a 24 hour period and at her age she's supposed to be sleeping 10-12 hours a night. It wasn't an easy decision either. No parent wants to put their child on medication but we decided to put our faith in the Lord and put it in his hands and trust our doctor. He's never steered us wrong before and he's always been a cautious doc to boot. We won't be leaving her on it long. Just long enough to get a regular sleep pattern back into her life.
Sadie is doing well. Still no talking and she's still mastering walking. I took her to the eye doctor the other day and he said everything looks good and the only reason she has one eye that deviates out is because she has some overactive muscles in her eye. He said that it does not disturb her vision and that if it doesn't correct itself as she gets older then she can have surgery to correct it. Not the greatest news (the whole surgery thing) but at least she isn't having any disturbances in her vision.
Ryan is doing well. He's been working a little less overtime since we received the settlement from the insurance company of the girl that hit me back in May 2006 so that's always a bonus. He did take a side job doing drywall but that's only lasted a few weekends and he's just about finished. I advised him that I don't like it when he takes side jobs and I asked him to not take anymore.
Our Jeep is still parked in the garage and we're waiting on a part for it. It turned out to be a bigger pain than we thought to get the part and we wanted to get the best deal which also meant that we had to wait a little longer than we would have liked. We both look forward to giving Alan and Shauna back their car as I'm sure they're looking forward to getting it back from us. It's been really great of them to let us have their car for as long as we've had it and we plan on doing something nice for them as soon as we give it back...So, if you have any ideas of things we can do send us an email with your thoughts.
Ryan and I are in counseling together to work on money management. We both want to be on the same page and work toward the same goals. It's not that horrible but it's the one place our marriage needs to be looked at and we both agree we each have areas we can and need to work on. We had a great session and discovered it was a couple's thing by complete accident. I was originally the one in counseling and Ryan wanted to come to one of my sessions to see how he could help me be better with money and that's when we learned that it was a problem we had together and not just me. Things will be better if we work on it together as opposed to individually anyway.
I have completely the class that my church requires to gain membership and to be baptised. I'm really looking forward to making that outward confession that I know Christ is my Savior and I know He loves me and that He died for my sins. It's also nice to be obedient.
So, that's the latest news with all of us. Hope all is well with each of you.

We've Had Some Adventures

Things are going pretty well for us. Ryan is about finished with the Jeep after about a month and a half, the garage almost goes all the way down and the kids are doing great.
First off, Kieran has been doing good so we bought him a nice t-shirt from Aeropastale. He was so excited that he put it right on. He's been dying to go there and get some clothes. I discovered after Ryan and I's adventure there that finding his size is not going to easy. It's more of an adult/young adult store. I think after payday I'll take him in there and let him pick out a couple of things, it's not all that expensive.
Steff has been a busy one. The other day she reached in her diaper and pulled out some poop and smeared it on our coffee table and flung it all over the living room. She literally had it from head to toe. That was a joy to clean up...can you say bleach? Other than that she's doing great. She will be three on the 31st, which is coming fast. I can't believe she's almost three.
Sadie is doing well. She still won't talk but her walking is getting better and better. She still wobbles like a drunk but it's so cute to see her doing it.
Ryan and I got to get out together a couple of times together in the last week-alone or it wouldn't be so exciting as to write about. We went to dinner with his mom and step-dad which was some nice adult conversation and great food too. The waiting for almost an hour was worth it.
Yesterday we went and ran errands. First we went and dropped my ring off so one of the prongs could be straightened and then we just cruised around the mall for a few minutes. That's when we went to Aeropastale and got Kieran his shirt. We also got Ryan a shirt and get this...it was orange and he picked it out. He looks great in it too. I can't wait to see him dress up and wear it. The next thing we did was go to Best Buy and get him an SD card for his camera and a cable for his new monitor. We dropped a few bucks between both stores but nothing that we couldn't afford. It was just wonderful that my mom came up and watched the kids so we could get out together.
As you can see we've been doing pretty well for ourselves. Sleep is evading me but that couldn't have anything to do with the fact that my 3 year old is up at 5am and wanting to be chatter box. I just want her to crash back out so I can get some sleep. Maybe she will, maybe she won't only the good Lord knows.