Sunday, December 30, 2007

Winding Down

The day is winding down and over all it has been pretty good. Kieran is off to never never land, Sadie has joined him, Mady stayed the night again and has gone off to watch some television before she knots off and Steff is pushing our buttons. She has the worse sleep habits I've ever seen. She has to fall asleep anywhere but her room. She usually chooses the kitchen but for the past two nights she came and laid in the living room and dozed off. Not tonight though, she's chosen the kitchen.
I cannot tell you how excited I am to get Rexy. I read up on Chihuahua's a little and found out they can be hard to train but that paper training them is the easiest way. We'll see. The info I read also stated they need positive reinforcement and not harshness to learn to use the potty right. I talk to Mareesa and she said they have been trying to paper train the puppies so that should give him a start in the right direction since I read paper training is the best way to do it. I hope he gets well potty trained. There is almost nothing worse than a dog that isn't house trained and I don't know if I can handle a non-house trained animal. Poop and pee all over our house just isn't going to fly.
The kids played well together tonight. It was nice to see Mady and Nick get along and sad as it is, they kinda ganged up on Kieran. He handled it pretty well though. He's still done an excellent job of taking care of his turtle, which is now named "Princess" because we informed him we think it's a girl. He didn't seem to mind though. Good kid.
I'm just looking for things to do before Ryan and I head off to bed. He's playing a video game and I have backed up all my picture files and printed some pictures and addressed cards and so on and so on, now I'm just looking for things to do. I think I'll get off the blog since this is the third or so today and find something a little more productive to do.

Our Rexy

We got to see our puppy!!! HE'S SO CUTE!!! We got to hold him and kiss him and smell that new puppy smell. He's so fun, he even fell asleep in my hands. I'd say my arms but he's too small to be falling asleep in my arms. He fits into the palms of your hands with room to spare.
It sounds like we might be getting him sooner than originally planned. His mom is starting to have nothing to do with all the puppies so maybe within the next two weeks. I am so excited but so nervous. I need to buy a puppy training book and a book about Chihuahua's. It's been a long time since I had a puppy. I haven't really had a puppy since I was 16 when I was baby hungry and satisfied the need with a dog. This is going to be a new adventure...Oh, the stories I'm going to have to tell in the coming weeks...
The kids are being good. All but the whiny Steff. She hasn't been too bad today, at least she hasn't gotten into a whole bunch of stuff but she's been super whiny and she's the tv natzi. We cannot watch anything or she freaks out and wants Sprout. I can tell you, Ryan is sick of her antics today. He think she's a brat and for the most part she usually is but she has had more periods of goodness today than usual. Of course, not right now when she is screaming and whining for everything that we cannot give her-like Starbucks banana nut bread. She loves that bread and whenever she sees Starbucks or a Starbucks coffee cup she asks for that bread. No, she freaks out for that bread. So, each time we go to Starbucks we have to get her banana bread.
Sadie has been hanging out with Kieran and Mady all day. She's so used to Mady that when Mady tried to put her down she started to cry. There is of course, a way out and around that...just get her a bottle and lay her down in front of Sprout and she forgets all about who she was wanting. She's such an easy baby and to top it off she's been feeling icky. She has a bit of a cold and I can't think of who she would have gotten it from. I don't think she's been around anyone sick-I mean, obiviously she has or she wouldn't be sick but I didn't think we knew anyone who had been sick recently. Of course, there are so many ways of getting sick from someone, who knows?
Kieran has enjoyed having someone to hang out with today. He and Mady have hung out most of the day. It's nice because they don't fight like mad like Kieran and some people do. It's nice and pleasing. Kieran has been taking good care of his turtle too. He keeps checking the temperature and turns on his heat lamp when it gets too cool in the tank. I wonder how long this novelty is going to last though. I read that turtles live for 25 to 40 years...Hell, that turtle might outlive me. I hope not, but it might. I hope he likes it for more than a week. He's named it "Dumbo" for what reason I cannot be sure but that's his or her name. We think it might be a girl, we did some looking into their claws and their tails and it seems that this one is a female. Which means she may get huge and outgrow a tank. I can just see it now, Ryan and I are seventy something years old and we have a turtle swimming in our bathtub...hilarious!
Ryan seems to be in a much better demeanor. I think having a few minutes to play his video game have been refreshing. Granted it would be nicer if we had our computer room so he could go off and baracade himself in there for peace and quiet but that is not our setup for now. My mom said she's going to try and move out in February or something like that. I really hope so, we would love to have our basiment to ourselves. I have daydreams of her moving out. I have wonderful dreams of the day when she finally grows up enough to live on her own. I doubt it will be anytime close to February but she may learn to take care of herself by then-highly doubt it.

Stocking Stuffers

Ryan and I just played and played with all the stuff that we got in our stockings. We chewed gum and had planned to have a bubble blowing contest but Ryan accidentally swallowed his. We played with play-doh and made snakes and Ryan made a penguin. We ate candy and pop-rocks and we played with "cools" and we simply just played with stuff. It was a good time.
Ryan installed his new printer and he lost his mind a little but when you have taken your meds for a couple of days, one of your good friends and work buddies is a very negative person and you feel overwhelmed by the chores of taking care of a house you're bound to feel really icky and negative.
Steff just attempted to touch Ryan's new printer and Ryan about lost it...of course, he's been kinda fed up with her today. She is kind of a brat and he isn't taking her crap today. He actually has been kinda nasty in general. I know he's been hypercritical of me and all the things I do wrong. It's actually starting to get me down. I confronted him and he apologized but I think it all has something to do with all the things I mentioned earlier.
Enough analyzing Ryan this is supposed to be a happy blog. I mean we played with all the stock stuffers and had a great time. What two adults do you know that can just break down and play like kids in their stockings. We did...

Saturday, December 29, 2007

Steff's New Favorite Show

You won't believe this but Kieran got Steff addicted to Sponge Bob. It's hilarious...She keeps asking me to put on Bob Bob because she can't quite say Sponge. I never thought she would want to watch it as much as she does. But, she keeps telling me to put it on. It kinda sucks because the episodes are only about 14 minutes long so I have to keep the remote close by so I can replay the same two episodes. I'm gonna go nuts after watching these same episodes over and over.
I'm still so bored. I even washed my hair, dried it and curled it. I did the old cliche and washed my hair because I was so bored. I talked to Ryan and he said he'll be home shortly after 4. I wanted to cry. I miss him and need his companionship really bad. This day has gone by so slow. I know he needs to get the hours because he's only getting holiday pay on his check but all the same, not having him home sucks.
I have learned that I can do this all without my mother just fine. She thinks I'm incompetent and I'm here to say she's wrong. I have taken care of my children for the last two days without any problem. I don't know if my kids have been angels or if this is really how it is but it's not as bad as I had it made out in my mind to be. They are easy if you know them...
It looks like my sister is going to be staying the night tonight. Maybe I'll put her to work so Ryan and I can run an errand together-alone. I don't know though because I've never left her with my kids before. Heck, I've never left them with anyone but adults. I know Mady is the one that takes care of them when they are at my dad's though. So, it's not like it's any big deal to leave her with them, besides, my mom would be home if there was any problems. Yeah, I think we deserve to run an errand together.

December 23rd



Here are a few pictures from December 23rd, Grandma O's Christmas gathering.
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It's Been An Interesting Morning

It has definitely been one of those mornings. Steff hasn't gotten into anything, perse but, she has been downstairs and found all sorts of my mom's things to bring upstairs. And, telling her "no" is not an option...So, we ended up with same stuff that I had Kieran take down last week. The same stuff ends up upstairs as goes down.
Sadie is being her usual self...She woke up and ate a bottle and then pooped. Nothing that doesn't happen everyday. She is still cute as a button though. She has been a little llama lately. She keeps doing that raspberry thing and soaking the whole front of herself. Ryan is going "ooga booga" in Sadie's face and she thinks it's the most hilarious thing. She is just so darn cute. I think she may be getting sick though. She's had a bit of a cough for two days and yesterday she kept laying her head on me and just watching the television.
Kieran is at his Gram and Gramps. His cousins went over there yesterday so he caught a ride with them and went too. I'm not sure what kind of fun Marla had planned for them but she usually does something with them when she has them all...I hope he enjoys himself.
Today, Ryan is going to work and then later on we are planning on doing all our post Christmas running around. We don't ever do it the day after Christmas, it's just too hectic for that.

Thursday, December 27, 2007

Yesterday & Today

Yesterday was a very productive day, today, however is lazy.

Yesterday, Ryan and I moved two book cases to new spots and rearranged the girls room and the dining room. We moved my new bookcase to it's new home and I put some books on it.
We rearranged all the toys in the girls' room. We actually put all the toys in there so there's no longer any in our dining room. We have plans to paint the walls and redo the floor in the dining room so that's why we cleaned it out. The girls are still welcome to carry toys into it and play, they just don't have all their toys in there now. We put two book cases in there and my stereo in there as well. We plan on getting a new dining room table soon but until then we are going to put a chair in there in place of the Christmas tree and have a place to read.

We moved my stuff by the computers because we got rid of a bookcase that was there. All we did was move my desk over a little bit and put my cart in the corner. Nothing serious but it looks nicer.

We put my new bookcase in the living room. I have to admit, it looks nice. I love it to death. I'm so glad Ryan decided to get it for me for Christmas. It's solid oak so when we redo our living room we can stain it to match the hardwood. At least, that's the plan.

Today, has been completely lazy, even the girls are being on the lazy side. It's a good thing that Kieran isn't here, he's always got to be doing something so our laziness would drive him nuts.

The kids are doing well and they got spoiled for Christmas-as usual...They don't act too spoiled and that's a good thing. We've tried to teach them to be thankful for everything they get but as parents-you know how that is...sometimes they get it and sometimes they don't. We try and that's what matters.

I have blogged about the latest happenings and now, I think it's time to go continue my laziness.

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

Christmas

It was a wonderful Christmas. Our day was beautiful and white. We had the first white Christmas since we moved into our house. It was so wonderful to wake up to freshly fallen snow. Yeah, Ryan didn't appreciate having to shovel the walk and the driveway but it was sure beautiful.
Our day began early, try 6:30ish. Kieran came in and woke me up and said it was Christmas, then he woke the rest of the family up and the festivities began. We opened gifts for about an hour and a half and then Ryan went back to bed for two hours. He had only gotten 2 and half hours of sleep when we got up and began opening gifts...he said he had the hardest time falling asleep. I think he was just over excited and couldn't sleep...this was the first year that Steff got into opening gifts and next year should be even better because Say will be into it for the first time and Steff will be even more into it and of course, Kieran was still be excited for it all.
At about 10:30 we left to go to Ryan's dad's for the goings on over there. We had a good time at his dad's. There were a lot of people there but it wasn't as miserable as I thought it would be. It was actually nice to see everyone. We got some really neat stuff from Great Grandma and Grandpa Kelstrom and of course, Sherm and Diane as well. Great Gpa and Gma gave Kieran one of the gifts he wanted the most-Heeleys...He was so excited and I don't think he's taken them off since.
After Dad and Diane's we came home and veged some more. I laid down because I had somehow managed to work up a headache. It was a pretty bad one too but it went away easily. I think I just got over stimulated.
At about 5:30pm we headed over to my sister Jamie's house to finish off our Christmas running around...We were there for about two hours and by that time our kids were finished and ready to hit the sack. They played hard and had a great day.
Ryan and I really enjoyed watching our kids this Christmas. They are so fun and funny to watch.
There was nothing overly exciting about our Christmas and that's okay because it made for a pretty relaxing day of fun and family. We have seriously decided that next year we aren't going anywhere-we'll see if that sticks??? If next year could be as easy as this year then I don't have any problems making a couple of stops. Don't get me wrong, it would be nice to have a nice, relaxing Christmas at home but a couple of stops isn't bad at all.
All in All it was a wonderful Christmas. The Lord blessed us immensely and nothing but wonderful things happened. I felt bad all day that Ryan was so tired but he did well and was quite the trooper. The kids were great and well-behaved and there were no illnesses or tragedies. What a blessed day it was.

Monday, December 24, 2007

Grandma O's

Last night was Grandma Ogan's yearly holiday event and it was wonderful. It was a good time but we owe Steff a great amount of thanks for that...she was a good girl. Matter of fact all of my children were good. Say was a bit on the tired side so she was a little fussy but her being fussy is really nothing because she's such a good baby.
We had a wonderful meatball dinner that Uncle Craig made. It was absolutely superb. I couldn't thank him enough for how excellent it was. He's a great chef.
Grandma looked really good. She was wearing a very beautiful sweater and had the cutest little light up necklace on. Very festive. . .
It was wonderful seeing all my in-laws. Ryans brother and his wife had just gotten back from their vacation in New York. They looked refreshed and in love with each other.
Marcus and Anne looked good and Mr. Max was adorable as always. He was just toddling all over the place with great ease. It's been fun seeing him grow. I can hardly believe he's growing so fast. I remember when he was a newborn. He's always been an adorable little baby.
Sean looked good, but he always looks good. He's got a great sense of fashion. I didn't talk to him much but he seemed okay.
Anyway, Everyone looked good and it was a great time. I really enjoyed seeing Grandma's great friend Velma. She was a special guest and she looked as good as she always does. She is just such a neat lady. I'm happy Grandma had her over.
It was a very low-key event and it was warm and loving. It was a nice kick-off to our Christmas Festivities for this year. We owe grandma a great amount of thanks for such a wonderful event.

Friday, December 21, 2007

Fun & Productive Day

Today has been both fun and productive. Ryan stayed home from work today, which was a really nice break from the norm. We were lazy for the first 1/4 of the day and then things got interesting and then the fun began.
First we shoveled snow and chipped ice off the driveway. That was hard work. But, we rewarded ourselves by coming in and taking little cat naps. That was nice. He laid with his head one way and I laid with mine the other way. The girls just sat and watched a Christmas movie. I can hardly believe that they were good long enough for us to nap, a short nap but a nap none-the-less.
After our catnap we got down to business and cleaned the floors. And, I do mean cleaned...we broke out the carpet shampooer and got the living room and hallway looking nice and clean. It took a couple of hours and we had wet carpet for the remainder of the day but our carpet looks nice. It was well overdue for a good shampoo.
After that adventure, Ryan took Steff and Kieran to the park to go sledding. They were gone for about an hour and Sadie and I just hung out together. I would have gone but I really didn't want to take Say out into the cold. She had thrown up earlier so we couldn't be sure if she just had some bad milk or if she was getting sick. No reason to risk it.
Sadie and I enjoyed each other. I had a headache so I was laying on the couch and she kept coming over and saying, "mama" to me. It was quite adorable and helped me feel better.
Ryan and Kieran said they had a great time sledding. Steff really enjoys it. Which is not a shock since she's a little thrill junkie. Ryan said the only time she didn't enjoy herself was when the powdery snow sprayed her in the face. I'm really glad they had a good time. I know we did when it was Ryan, Steff and myself. Sledding is just as fun as an adult as it is when you're a kid.
Once the sledding adventure was over we threw Kieran and Steff into the bath together to warm them up and Ryan and I spent a few minutes together. Say, was asleep...The kids got out and watched the same Christmas movie they had been watching previously today...We watched it about 5 times all together. Steff really likes to wear movies out. She gets on a kick and she kicks the movie to death.
Anyway, back to what I was saying. Once the kids were out of the bath Ryan and I jumped in the shower...Save water, shower with a friend is our motto. So, we got out of the shower and Kieran wanted a fire. What he wanted, he got. Ryan and Kieran started a fire together. Ryan had him help him bring in the wood from the garage and start the fire from the bottom up. Kieran really enjoyed spending that time with his dad.
Right now Kieran is in bed-after falling asleep in front of the fire-, Steff is winding down for the night and Ryan is getting Sadie ready to go to bed. It's about time for Ryan and I to have that time we need together. Today was a good day...

It Snowed

It snowed and it's suppost to snow on Christmas Eve too. I'm so excited to have a white Christmas. I've been asking for one since the year we moved into this house. Now, it appears that I may get one. The only bummer about the snow is that it's cold...the wind is blowing and it's very chilly outside. Oh, well, I'll take a little bone chill to have a white Christmas.
The kids are doing well. Steff slept in until 9:30 and Sadie slept in until 9:00. Kieran got up around 9:15 but their timing seemed very nice. I had a moment to absorb each one of them before the next one got up and Steff was the last to wake up. Right now, Kieran is out playing in the snow and the girls are watching a Christmas moving with that whiny 4 year old, Caillou...It's actually quite cute.
Today is an adventure free day. I only need to get one last Christmas present and I can do that later. It's no big deal...Ryan and I might go see my puppy, of course, we'll take the kids too but I'm excited to meet my "Rexie." They nicknamed him T-Rex since he pesters all the other puppies. Matt said he's so fat he sits on his bum and belly as apposed to his hind legs like most dogs. I can't wait to see him. I know he's gonna be little and cute and I'm so excited...I hope the kids like him too. He is my dog but their oppinion matters...
Well, I have things to do and the kids haven't done anything exciting yet so I'll be back once the action starts...

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Sadie

Sadie has a new thing that she does...she squeals. It's so cute. She used to "hoo" and lately she'll be doing something and squeal. It's the funniest thing. I think she's getting close to talking. She has been saying "mama" and "dada" a lot more too. I think she's starting to use them in their right contexts. I think she's getting that I'm mama and Ryan is dada.
Today is the last day of our Christmas shopping adventures. All we have to get is 3 gifts for Kieran. Of course we have to go to 2 different stores for them but we'll be done and I can come home and wrap them.
I was telling Ryan that I should get a job as a wrapper at a store like Dillards or Macys. I really enjoy wrapping gifts and that would feed my need to see new things. Not to mention I'd see some great deals that I could go for myself. Yeah, Ryan would love that....
It's only 5 days til Christmas!!! It's so exciting being in the single digits. I can hardly wait. I've come to the conclusion that my excitement is because Steff will be into opening the gifts this year. So, I have 2 of 3 of my kids into the holiday or at least the gifts. Next year I ought to be so excited that I can't contain myself. Because next year all three of my kids will be in to the gifts. I'm also excited to teach Steff about the baby Jesus and what Christmas really is all about. She'll understand better next year than she does this year.
I'm also going to start taking the girls to church. Kieran already goes with Marla and he has since the day he was born. His dad and I made a promise to God when he was a baby that we'd raise him to know all about Christ and his sacrifice for us. His Gram has always been a big help with that. I want to give our daughters that same gift. They deserve and need to know who Christ is. I want them to make the right decision when the time comes. Oh..and Ryan and I have talked about me taking the girls to church and he thinks it's a great idea, he said he'd even help me get them ready and maybe even go with us. He knows that my religion will simply teach them from the Bible so they can learn all the stories and lessons that God has had put into His Word. I'm really happy that I have his blessing in taking them. I wouldn't otherwise since we are two different religions and I don't want to step on his toes or do something with our children that he doesn't like.

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Our Appointment was A Wreck

I cannot say for sure what our appointment was for but Steff didn't cooperate, she screamed and cried most of the time, Ryan had had very little sleep and Sadie got tired. So, while everyone is supposed to be nice and happy not many of us were. Kieran and I cooperated and Ryan smiled through the pain of being sleep deprived but Steff and Sadie were not having it...It was something to remember.
The kids are doing good today.
Kieran came home kinda ornery though. He said there's a couple of kids at school giving him a hard time and teasing him. He said they have been threatening to bring a knife to school and stab him. And, for some reason or other Mr. Visser has tried to call today. I did try to call him back but I got his voicemail so I left a message. I asked Kieran what his teacher could possibly be calling about and he said he has no idea. Usually he will tell me if there's a reason behind a phone call so I'm at a loss about what he could possibly need to talk to me about. Other than drama at school he's doing good. His home life has been great but I worry about him at school.
Steff is the ever present stinker. She has more crafty ways of being a turd than any child I've ever dealt with. Today she stuck the nose of her giraffe into a cup of coffee, I guess she figured it was thirsty and needed a drink...Mom drinks it so it must be okay for her animals. One other thing she's really into doing lately is taking her clothes off and running around in her diaper. Which, we are hoping those will be going bye-bye soon(diapers that is). She keeps taking her diaper off too so we decided to get her some "big girl panties" for Christmas. We'll see how that goes....we would be elated if she would potty train soon, she is almost 3 years old and it's past time, at least for me personally.
Sadie has been a good little sleeper lately, which has been nice...She usually goes to bed right around 8pm and she will wake up only once throughout the night but I don't think she even opens her eyes. All she wants is a bottle and to go back to sleep. Her naps have changed from 45 minutes to a couple of hours and she does that twice a day. It's been nice having that time to myself and to have a chance to spend it with Steff, she seems to require more one on one time lately. Sadie has also been making new sounds and squeals that are so very cute...Lots of new stuff starting to happen with her. She has this toy that she stands up to and pushes it and walks, another cute thing she does.
Ryan is getting very, very excited for his Christmas break to get here. He has been working 35 hours of OT each payday and he didn't on this last check and that's when he decided he's not going to work 35 hours any longer. See, he had worked 30 hours OT for this last check and the difference was only 75 dollars. I could hardly believe it. I don't blame him one bit. I wouldn't want to spend that extra time at my work if the reward was only 75 bucks.
I think everyone of us in this house is getting excited for Christmas. I know Kieran is and I definitely am and I think Ryan is also...I'm sure he'll be elated once he's out of work for the rest of the year.

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Recent Stuff

It's going to be a very busy week for us. Today is our usual bi-weekly grocery shopping day, tomorrow we have an appt for all five of us at 9am and then we have to go to RC Willeys to get a couple of Christmas gifts. Then on Thursday we have to finish up all our Christmas shopping but at 10am Kieran has a doctor's appt with Dr. K and then at 4:40 and 4:45pm Kieran and I have appointments with Dr. E to get our meds refilled. Friday we planned on taking the kids to see the lights at Ogden's Christmas Village and Saturday is thus far, free from anything. Sunday is Grandmother O's Christmas get together for her grandchildren and their families and Monday, also known as Christmas Eve, we are going over to mom's to have dinner and open our Christmas PJ's. Then Tuesday is thee Big Day...Christmas!!! I'm still so very excited...Only 7 days left...Yah...
The kids have been their usual selves. Kieran is still having issues with his dad. He had another fall apart last night while I was at the store getting some prescriptions. He tried to call me but my phone was still on silent from the day before when we went to the Christmas Cantata. I felt bad but my mom said she just sat and held him for a little while and then he called his Gram. Once he was off the phone with his Gram he had a different demeanor and seamed okay.
Steff is still up to no good. She got up at some point in the middle of the night and raised hell both upstairs and downstairs. Upstairs she spilled coffee all over the kitchen floor. But, downstairs is where she really had a good time. She took a whole bunch of ornaments off my mom's trees and poured baby powder all over the toilet seat and floor. I don't know when she did all this because when I went to bed she was sound asleep. I even slept on the couch and still didn't hear her. I must have been tired. Another thing Steff has been up to is that she always takes her clothes off...she just goes into her room and strips. She must prefer being in just her diaper and even then, she takes that off too...
Sadie is doing well, she's very close to standing. She can do it for a second but she simply won't do it until she wants to. We have tried and tried to "practice" with her but no luck. She is also getting more brave when she cruises the furniture...she will let go and walk a couple of steps unassisted. She is so close but she's the type of baby that just will not do something until she is absolutely ready to.
Ryan is getting more and more excited about his vacation time off of work. He was saying he thinks this week is going to go by slow because he wants to have that time off so bad. I told him that I bet it goes by fast because they will be busy trying to get things done before they close the shop for a week. He will have 4 days off and then he's going to go in for 2 and then he will have another 4 off.
I'm excited for Ryan to be off. Not only is he my bestfriend he's a big help with the kids. He's so hands on and it's cute to watch him play with them.
I'm really getting excited for Christmas now but the funniest part is that I'm excited most of all about the stocking stuffers. I love what Santa brings us. He's always got a boat load of cool little things. I know he must go to the dollar store for those little things.
Well, it's a busy day and I must get the girls ready to walk out the door. I'll be back later, I'm sure.

Sunday, December 16, 2007

Mom's Birthday Party...

Mom's party was wonderful. My sister in-law and brother in-laws did a great job on the meal. It was like Thanksgiving all over again. Absolutely wonderful...Thanks to you all.
Mom was excited about her gift, her camera. She had a technology type birthday. She received an MP3 player from her brother and a beautiful shirt from Grandmother Ogan-her mother.
We had a great time and it was wonderful seeing everyone. We don't get together a great deal but, we do get together and we always have a good time. I married into a wonderful family. They are clean and fun...Thanks to everyone for being so accepting of me.

The girls are still awake and it's amazing that they are. They've had a big day with going to the cantata and Marcus and Anne's house for dinner. Sadie was all but falling asleep and Marcus and Anne's and she crashed in the car but as soon as we got home, her little blue peepers popped right open. Steff has got to be just as tired. She played really hard at Marcus and Anne's. They had some great toys that she had a good time with.
It was fun to see Maxton...He's such a doll. He's getting big and his personality is the best. I am still in amazement that I have fallen completely in-love with my nephew. I knew I'd love my children deeply but I never figured I'd love my nephew so much. It's a wonderful feeling.

Ryan is napping and each time I go in he asks for more time. He said he heard Steff screeching the whole time and thus he hasn't slept as long as he intended to-or at least that's what I read into his comment about Steff's screaming.

I am feeling worn out. It was a long day for me too. I think when Ryan gets up I will be helping get the girls to bed and then I'm going to bed also.

Oh...I forgot, Ryan and I had a chance to spend time together watching a movie last night. We watched a movie called "Next." Ryan really enjoyed it but he didn't like the end. I thought the end was pretty wrong also. They should've taken it somewhere else. We decided we didn't want to get that movie for our personal collection. It wasn't great enough to watch again...

I think it's time to call it a night. I will surely be back in the morning to type about the happenings of the 8th day before Christmas.
Still excited about Christmas....I'm getting a 7 foot tall shelf from Ryan. I thought he was either going to get me a digital picture frame or a book case but I was still very excited. I love books and need a big place to keep them...
Good Night....

Cantata

We went to Washington Heights Baptist Church's Christmas Cantata. It was an experience to say the least. The cantata was nice and it was wonderful to spend the time with Ryan. It was the "getting ready" part that was entertaining.
I got up and did my hair at 7am just to get a good head start on the whole process. Ryan said getting ready wasn't bad but he only had to get himself ready. I was the one that got the girls ready. It wasn't as bad as it could have been but it was a job. I gave them both separate baths, put them in tights and dresses and did their hair. What a chore.
Ryan laughed because the girls were all dressed up and all they did was sit in daycare for an hour and a half. I told him it was a dry run for the next time we go to church. I had to experience the whole thing from start to finish at least once. I can say it wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be but I wouldn't want to have to have them ready and out the door by 8:30 to make it to church with me when I go at 9am. That would most definitely add a lot of stress to the situation.
But, seriously, the cantata was nice. It was full of dancing and Christmas music and songs I've never heard before. Ryan liked the solos the men did and he heard a song that he's never heard before that he liked. He said it was good. He even joked that he was going to come to church with me one time and bring his Book of Mormon and read it through the sermon. I gave him a hard time back at told him that it would burst into flames. It was all in good fun though. He did wonder what they would do if he really did do that. I told him probably nothing. I'm sure they'd tell him he was loved and adored by God and it would be left at that. That is, if anyone noticed or cared to say anything at all. Like I said, It was a conversation that was all in fun and we had no ill things to say to each other.
Today has been a nice day thus far. It was nice getting up and spending some time alone before the kids woke up. Plus, Ryan got out of bed fairly easy. Of course, Sadie had a hand in that...she stood up to him and jumped and kept jumping until he was wide awake. Steff was the last out of bed but she still didn't sleep as long as I would have liked her to. She got up about 8:45am and was off and runnin'.
Steff said the funniest thing this afternoon...I have this music box that she just adores and she got it off my dresser and told us she was, listening to the "you-pit" box. Can you believe that? It's not a music box to her it's a "you-pit" box...Kids say the funniest things.

Saturday, December 15, 2007

Oooh...Steff is On One

Ooooh...Steff is being the biggest stinker. She keeps throwing things even after her dad has told her to stop and disciplined her several times...she broke my mom's tape dispenser by throwing it across the kitchen floor, which means, the sand inside of it is now riddled all over the floor...she got into the silverware drawer and got out a butter knife...and she keeps sticking her finger in her nose and then into her mouth. That's just the beginning of it all. She is just straight up on one. Ryan is getting pretty sick of disciplining her and taking care of kids in general.

Sadie is being her usual self, just crawling around playing and occasionally falling victim to her sister's antics. She keeps getting in the way of the objects Steff is throwing. We haven't had any tears from her as of yet though.

Kieran called today and said the funniest thing...he said, "I just went and got the cousins." He was telling me that he and his Gram had cruised into Ogden and picked up his cousins. It was just funny the way he said it and how mature he sounded. I had to laugh. He sounded like he was having a good time with his cousins and his grandparents in general.

Seeing Santa



I took the girls to see Santa... Actually it was the FOE's annual Christmas party and Santa made an appearance...As you can see from the pictures, Steff chatted him up and Sadie screamed. Ryan and I would have guessed things would have gone the opposite. With Steff being completely against the whole idea. The very second Sadie looked up at his face she burst into tears. It was so cute and so funny. When he finally got around to asking Steff what she wanted for Christmas she said, "Get down." She had had enough and wanted to be on her merry way. The party was fun but I have to admit I'm a trooper. I did it all by myself too, I guess I'm overdue for some extra credit points. I would have loved Kieran to come but he was at Grams and Kelly called at the last minute. I basically took them to put them on Santa's lap. I'm really glad I did. This way they'll have pictures of the first time they sat on Santa's lap. I know it's sad that this is the first time Steff has been on Santa's lap but she's never been a friendly child so we always figured she'd never go for it. Imagine my shock when I was able to take 3 or 4 pictures because she was up there so long. It was an experience I won't soon forget.

Doing Well

We are doing well...
Ryan is still working 35 hours of OT each week to pay for Christmas, he's burnt out but he sees a light at the end of the tunnel. He gets an entire week, paid, off of work. The company he works for is excellent...He's fed up with Steff's tricks and he's worried about Kieran and Sadie follows him around but he seems to be doing well. I know he's really ready for this Christmas vacation in spite of the fact that he may have to go in and get some hours to earn some extra cash. At least he'll have a couple consecutive days off.

Kieran was allowed to stay in from recess on Friday and he came home in a much better place. He wanted to go to his Grams so he called her and, off he went. He's still having a hard time with his dad and I think that's why he wanted to spend time with his Gram. He can't get any closer to his dad than being with her. She also has memorabilia scattered around her home and I think he may find peace in seeing his dad's stuff. I made him an appointment with his Psychologist for the 20th and he also has an appointment with our family doctor that day as well. Our family doctor is the one in charge of his meds and I think it's time to talk to him again. His Gram agrees that these steps need to be taken. We all just want him in a good place, one that he feels safe to be a kid...

Steff is still up to her antics. The other day she mixed the sugar with the coffee grounds and the coffee grounds with the sugar and then she put some liquid in the sugar jar and made a paste... that dried...She also got a hold of her shampoo and twisted the lid off and poured it out all over her bedroom floor. Ryan said when he tried to clean it up it turned into a bubble mess. On a positive note, her room smells wonderful. She is just such a stinker. We think it's because she gets bored. She's been used to having nice weather and being outside playing for hours on end and now that it's too cold to play outside she's stuck in the house and thus, she comes up with ideas to entertain herself.

Sadie is well. She is taking the steps to being standing. She will let go of furniture and stand for a moment and then she slowly lowers herself to the floor. It's not like she plops down, she literally lowers herself. It's quite interesting to see. We've also been "practicing" with her by standing her in the middle of the floor and letting go. She will stand for a few seconds and when she starts to lower herself we stand her back up and try again. Oh, she's getting so close. I already got my Christmas gift from her (she said "mama") so expecting her to stand is a little much. Hopefully soon though...Ryan and I agree that her size, being so tiny and all will be so cute to see her walking. Almost weird in a sense...

I am doing quite well myself. Steff is driving me crazy and I'm worn out with trying to stay one step ahead of her but she's really been into having us read books so that's a nice break throughout the day. I worry about Kieran but I have been trying to be a rock and a safe place for him to go. Each time I leave the house I take him with me and we have talks about life and his feelings and other "stuff." I think it has helped a little but it's not time to breathe yet. Sadie has been my peaceful place to go, she's always ready for a cuddle and she gives lots of kisses. Somewhat slimy and wet kisses but kisses none-the-less. I'm still excited for Christmas and there is only 10 days left but I'm starting to get sick of feeling like it's never going to be here. When there are like 7 days left I'll start to get really excited...

Thursday, December 13, 2007

Another Late Night

It's going to be a while yet before Steff will successfully go to bed. She took a late nap and I couldn't get her to wake up. She ended sleeping for about two hours. And, thus she will not go to bed...We played this game last night too and she didn't end up falling asleep until after 11pm...
Other than that it has been a good night. Kieran and Steff played together well and did a lot of laughing. Sadie played on the floor and at one point she was literally rolling around. It was quite cute.
Kieran is having some problems at school...He says no one likes him and he keeps begging me to write a note so he doesn't have to go outside during recess. I think he may be feeling really down on himself. I can't be sure what the real problem is because the way he perceives things may not be completely accurate. I know he's been dealing with the holidays and not having his dad so I'm sure he's been at some unrest at school and he may be coming across in a negative way.
I know when I was in school I had a hard time with friends and I'm trying to remember what the problem was. I didn't have any problems once I was in Jr. High and High School but grade school was almost torturous to me. I know I was super emotional and so is he...And, I think that made kids afraid, in a sense, to be my friend because they probably didn't want to make me cry. I'm just stabbing in the dark here and feeling great pain for my child. Any ideas?
I know one thing...I won't write him that note. Or maybe I will. Maybe he needs that time alone. I can't be sure what to do. Maybe placing a call to his therapist would prove to be helpful. I'll let you know what happens with that.
As for now, I'm trying to keep Steff doing mellow activities and keeping the house dark so she understands that it's quiet time. I think it's working but all hell could break lose here in a minute...Oh, I love being a mom-most of the time that is...

Kieran's Mad and Steff Diaper Free

Okay, so it probably sounds like we successfully potty trained Steff but that's not the case at all. You see, she keeps taking her diaper off and roaming free in the breeze. I don't know what to do, I don't want her peeing all over the place (and God forbid she poop) but I think she's trying to tell us something...If you have any suggestions please email me. I'm thinking maybe for Christmas we'll get her some "big girl" panties...Maybe she's ready, maybe this is one of her little games. Who knows?
Kieran came home angry today and straight up told me he's mad that his dad died. He also said his teacher won't let him talk about it. I don't know how much of that to believe but I do know I will be sending him a note reminding him that this is a particularly hard time of the year for a child who has lost their parent and I'll ask him to send Kieran to Mr. Richards, the school counselor if he should feel the need to talk about his feelings.
I don't know what to do to help him. I usually just prompt him with questions and hope that he feels like talking about it. I know I love him and this hurts me to see him go through the pain of losing someone so special to him. Sean was Kieran's world and vice versa. They did everything together and loved each other so very much. It makes me cry when I think of all Kieran lost when he lost his dad. If anyone has any suggestions on what or how I can help my wonderful son, please email me...

The Girls

Well, Sadie is awake and being her usual cute self. She's sitting on the floor playing with the basket of toys I got for her. She's such a good baby...
I'm thinking she'll be standing on her own soon. She barely hangs on to things and she'll occasionally let go and stand for a few seconds before slowly lowering herself back down to the floor. I told her that she could start standing as a Christmas present for me and daddy. I think she understood...but, she did say "Mama" so I guess I can't ask for too much more.
I know she seems a little slow but that's to be expected. She was born a month early and they say that you have to adjust their age to the time that they would have been born. So, her being behind is not such a big deal. Her pediatrician isn't really worried so we don't worry much. We just wish she'd do these things because they are such neat miles stones in a babies life.
Steff woke up at 5:45 this morning because her pillow was missing. It was cute, she came in and told me her, "piiwoh" was gone. I took her into her room and set it on the bed and she moved and said something about it needing to be "here." She then wanted some juice and back to sleep she went. I can't be sure why she really woke up but the last time she got up that early for something she slept in until almost 10. I'm hoping for the same miracle today. I won't be holding my breath but I will be hoping.
Last night we got the greatest package from the UPS guy...Marla and John(Kieran's grandparents from his dad's side) sent us a tower of goodies. It was from Harry and David. It has pears, caramel corn, mixed nuts, cheese and truffles in it. Oh, they are such good vittles. They sent us the same thing last year for Christmas and I was hoping she'd send it again this year, so, when we got it, I was super excited...We opened the cheese right up and the kids went nuts. I had to put it away and tell them, "no more" cuz we need to save some for dad. They would have eaten that cheese all gone if I'd have let them.
Chistmas is coming soon...I'm still excited and getting more and more excited as the days go by. We only have 12 days left and if I were rich I'd do the twelve days of Christmas for Ryan just as something fun.

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

The Kids Are Being Decent

It's been a pretty good night, thus far. The kids haven't been up to their usual antics so life has been much easier.
Sadie is being a sweet loving little stinker. I was holding her and she laid her head down on my shoulder and wrapped her arm around me. Funny thing with Sadie...she was sitting on the floor crying because I had put her down to go make her a bottle, my mom motioned for her to come to her and Sadie signed "no" and continue crying. It was pretty funny.
Steff has been very good. At least for Steffanie...She only went into my room and rummaged around on Ryan's dresser for a minute. Other than that she has just been wanting to eat every thing that she puts her eyes on...She has also been sweet and loving. Soon, she will be getting into a nice warm bath.
Kieran has been playing around on the computer. He did a little blog...really not much but he did express his feelings a little. He's been super helpful and loving as well. He hasn't left my side much and I believe that has to do with our conversation last night about how he's upset that his dad won't be here for Christmas. I just honestly believe he connected with me when I expressed that I missed his daddy too. It's perfectly fine with me. He's fun to teach new things and fill his little brain with useless trivia...



Here are few of the most recent pictures of the family. Yeah, I know I'm missing but pictures of me are rare and there aren't any really recent ones.

Crazy Children

I think with the decorating of the Christmas tree my children went crazy. As I said in my personal blog...the tree went up and the kids went nuts. I don't know what to do with them.
I know Steff is a little young to really get what Christmas is but she's been acting up as if internally she knows and is over excited. Kieran is definitely very excited. He comes home from school everyday and counts how many gifts are under the tree. I even had to ban him from picking them up and shaking them.
He's so funny, he's quite sure what some of the gifts are and the best part is he's only right about one of them. I won't tell him which one or even that he's right. I just shrug my shoulders and tell him the one that rattles a lot is not bb's. He thinks one of them is bb's and no matter what I say he doesn't listen. I told him he's gonna be mighty surprised when he finds out he's wrong.
We had to let Steff open one of her gifts because it was snow boots and we went sledding so she needed them. That irked Kieran, he really wanted to open one of his then. We of course, told him no and left it at that.
Right now Steff and Sadie are playing and laughing together again. I love it when they do this but it's a bummer it always ends with Sadie crying and Steff running off to her room and slamming the door.

She Said "Mama"

Last night was an exciting night for me...Sadie finally said, "Mama" It was the sweetest thing I've ever head come out of her little mouth. I have been trying for the last month to get her to say it. After she said it Kieran started trying to get her to say, "bubu."
It's so exciting that she's starting to talk. I was worried there for awhile that she wasn't ever going to talk or that there was some reason, something wrong and that's why she didn't. I've come to the conclusion that I was just a worried mother and that my daughter is just taking her dear sweet time doing things.
One day she will be walking and talking all over the place and I'll wish she was my cute little peanut that would just "hoo" and crawl around. I'm gonna regret her growing up because as of right now we are not having any more kids. The most recent conclusion is that we are done and it doesn't matter if Ryan's brother has any boys or not...we are done. We want to be done with diapers and baby stuff and kids that require a lot of hands on attention. We are looking forward to the days when Steff and Sadie can do chores and I can go back to school and eventually to work.
Now, don't go thinking we don't appreciate what we have because we do. It's just a hard time and we're looking forward to the challenges we'll be facing with kids that are older. We know it's never going to be easy but we also know that each day is a blessing and the future holds so much more.

Christmas Excitement, Missing His Dad

I think my children, or at least Kieran, are excited for Christmas. I believe it brings out the monster in them. I don't think they act up out of defiance but more out of pent up excitement. I can understand how they feel, I'm excited too. I just wish they would mellow out a little bit, just a little is all. I even had to take away one of Kieran's presents. Of course, he earned it back and I only did it to make a good point. I think he got the drift that only good children receive gifts.
Honestly, I felt horrible taking away one of his gifts but I could not get him to listen to me. I tried reasoning with him and asking nicely. I even tried raising my voice but nothing was getting through. So, taking a gift was the last straw. I can't express enough how bad I hated doing that and the worst part is how well it worked.

Last night Kieran and I had a talk about his dad. It was prompted by his negative, everyone hates me attitude. I asked him if he was mad that his dad couldn't be here for Christmas and, as expected, he started crying and confessed that he hurt and the kids at school couldn't understand because they had their parents. What was I to say? I just told him that I'd be mad too and that he needed to try and understand that the kids at school can't understand and that he shouldn't fault them for that.
After that he was much more mellow and loving, staying ever so close to my side. He needed to feel loved and I was happy to give that to him.

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Not Sure How He Feels

I told Ryan that I created this blog for both of us to express our own insights on our family and, I can't be sure what he thought. He kinda just laughed. We'll see if he takes a few moments here and there to blog...

Our New Blog

This is our new blog...The reason for the creation of this blog is to have a place in which both Ryan and I have a joint place to go and vent, air dirty laundry or chat you up about the latest and greatest of our family. I doubt this blog will be updated as much as my personal blog at www.momuv3.blogspot.com is but it should be good.
So, sit back, read and enjoy our life experiences with us.