Here I Sit

Here I sit, hurting at 4 in the morning. I thought the pain of this surgery would have subsided already but I'm actually in more pain now. Maybe it's because of the stints up my nose? Maybe it's because I got kneed in the face and it brought me to my knees in tears? Who knows? I know only one thing-the pain killers aren't working. I called my doctor and he was in surgery, he told me to go to the emergency room. Hell no! $100 co-pay, forget it....I'll suffer. I did think about it though, they have good painkillers there. Something that would take the edge off the hurt.
All I want are these stints out. I want the space in my nose to be free from plastic. Plastic is a great invention, until you have it shoved up your nose for a week. I'd take the things out myself but he stitched them in and I'm not sure where the stitches are to cut them out. That's how bad these things are affecting my lifestyle. I know why he said to take a week off work...you can't concentrate, all you think about is your nose and how uncomfortable and painful it is. And, again, the painkillers aren't working, they're actually a joke. I take them anyway hoping they provide relief. No such luck yet.
I'm sick of sniffing...boogers down the back of your throat...Gross. I have been a spitting machine. I wish they'd let me blow my nose cuz it's full of gunk. I shouldn't be writing of this stuff but it reality.
The only thing that feels good down the back of my throat is of all things; warm coffee. Good thing I love coffee.
Ya know the nose is more sensitive than we've ever given it credit for. I can feel wear these stitches are by the pain they bring. I can't wait to get these stints out of my nose!
There's nothing quite like having something to look forward to. For me, it's these stints coming out of my nose. I dream of free breathing days. I can see myself running through a meadow, breathing in the flowers and the fresh air. And, of course, I'm pain free.
I don't know if I hurt from the surgery or if it's these stints shoved up my nostrils.
Well, I'm gonna go put ice on my nose and see if I can get some more sleep...